Originally Posted by heatherg23

It's crazy how much we think alike. It makes perfect sense to me. I keep my pain hidden unless I fully trust a person. That would be my brother and my best friend. I even keep my pain hidden from my mother, whom I have to live with because I can't work. She hassles me about not doing enough to "help" the pain. Long story there. I don't care to explain this to others either. I totally agree about you saying I just want to be recognized as someone who suffers but is workin there butt off to keep things as normal as you can. I just want someone who says they care. My mom doesn't even know the letters RSD. She doesn't even care to know and understand what I have. I even stopped talking to 2 of my closest friends, friends for 25 yrs, because they treated me so poorly.... because of my pains. It's hard to trust people and hope they don't judge me. I don't want to be known as the one who's always in pain. That's the main reason I don't want people to know. I can't win.

I'm stuck laying down in my bed, every day, so I stick to myself. Even if I had a choice NOT to I still would be. It's exhausting trying to act normal. My dogs cheer me up so much. Don't know what i'd do without them. Probably cry a lot

Heather