Vintagewine:

I love your name. A little of a good vintage of wine is always nice. I am sorry to hear that you have tried to commit suicide in the past. Luckily your attempts were not successful. Ever since I was experiencing the pain, I too have been quite depressed just like many of us here. When I found out what it was that was causing the pain, I felt as if there was no escaping it. I thought of suicide and I did mention it to my dr. He was not too concerned about me taking my life since I did not have a plan, only thoughts. It was at that time I was put on Amitriptyline. Very much like nortriptyline that was mentioned by Littlepaw, it is a tricyclic antidepressant. That not only helps a little with my emotional state, it also helped with the pain. My dr. also gave me a script and a recommendation to see a psychiatrist. I finally made it in to see the psychiatrist last week, but by that time, I was already feeling much better about myself. It was a good thing because he wanted to take me off of all of the medication that I was on to help with the CRPS to try to put me on something to help me emotionally. I hope that does not discourage you from finding help, that psychiatrist did not know anything about CRPS and did not believe the pain that I was in which is the main reason for not continuing with him. I do know that there are many good counselors, psychiatrists, and psychologists out there that do want to help as well as many helplines that take calls 24 hours a day 365 days a year. Even try your insurance company. They usually have a mental helpline available as well. Please reach out to one of them to find the help you need.

Just like your name, a good vintage wine is a terrible thing to waste. Please, please, please stick around. There are many good reasons and good people on this planet to stay around, including many good people here.

Alaina