How comforting it is to see I matter
I’m validated as a person who is worthy of others to be concerned
It is something that is void other then the unconditional love from my grandchild
I am okay
By the love of God and scripture
In all that is happening around me by my family is just to much to handle alone and it is only with the grace of Heavenly Father talking to me through scripture
Did you ever go through something and you pick up the book and just randomly open it
And the Lord is speaking to my concerns
That those who mean the most to me are not doing okay and are trying to pull me into their problems
Not to get me wrong
It is only for the spirit that I try to keep close to me
Can I put one foot in front of the other
I am saddened by the mother to Eva
My child
Who I have to say is so gone on so many levels I am frozen at what she is capable of
My son going through a rough spot and last minute can me and boyfriend Jay stay with you
And at first he asks if I want a hair cut
As his boyfriend is a professional hair stylist
And not to soon after that
And explaining what his sibling my youngest came home Thursday with the confession I was worried of
But a new start
Happy to be home took off Saturday to “help” someone against my better advise of priority
Was shocked at the behavior
Many factors to why it was just not a good thing
And my boy says
Throw her butt out
It upset me to the core
All of it
All of them going through stuff they put themselves into
And only when things go wrong
Or not how they thought things were going to work out
The one that surprises me most is the babies mother
What’s happened to this family

My mother
Who I call to no answer to wish her happy birthday

My son just springing stuff so soon on me and advising to send his sister on her way
No I don’t want to put up with her crap
But I’m not done helping her
Like I did the others
She just came away from terrible stuff

As far as my broken body
It is getting worse
And the crappy thing is it’s not just one thing
Yup I’m scared it’s happening quickly

I will be seeing a vascular doctor
And some more in the list I’m not in a rush
And money not there
So prioritize
But there is something going on
I feel it

Decorating the house with Eva
And the smallest tree I ever had
But remember it’s for my grandchild
An she loved it
The tree 4’
I will put it on a table
And make decorations with her
Will do it on construction paper
Something
Any suggestions
Ideas welcomed

May you all be touched by an angel
But by the grace of Heavenly Father
I am putting one foot in front of the other
Will be going out with baby sister Eva suppose to be Corissa
Out for thanksgiving
Wishing all a healthy happy one
Love
Me
I will try and post even just to say hi
Love from someone who feels your love
Me