you are really getting things done. great.
as you suggested i looked up some grief forums but they didn't suit. i also looked up some scapegoating ones. you are so right a lot of my depression and pain are from events and not bipolar.one of my psychiatrists said if i had a different family my bipolar wouldn't have been so bad.
love and kisses
bobby

lately i feel a lot of bipolar rage. I can never forget when my mother said let the state take care of me.
Rabbi Shneur Zalman of Liadi interprets the parallel between anger and idol worship stems from the feelings of the one who has become angry typically coincides with a disregard of Divine Providence – whatever had caused the anger was ultimately ordained from God – through coming to anger one thereby denies the hand of God in one's life.[13]