Thanks guys. I'm going to buy some new pans today. I don't need any other issues. I feel I'm becoming narotic though on all my worries but better safe then sorry.
Melody, I'm sorry for your friend and I remember. I thank you for your praise. It has been the hardest thing of my life but I hope to write a book of my 12 year battle. When someone has a severe ed it effects there brain. You see how destructive you are rationally but the fear of changing is so scary. Its like your addicted to self destruction. Really to recover you have to be willing to do what ever it takes and sit with the anxiety and fear. The longer it goes on the harder it is to get through because you loose more through the ed and it become a lifestlye almost. I know many of my past docs thought I would never recover but a year and half ago I began to use the tools I learned and realised I had to get physically healthy to have a chance at a life. Don't give up on your friend but really there is only so much others can do. I had the best of care, my parents sent me to prgrams that costed 1500 a day and I always fell back. Not until two years ago almost did I commit and use the tools I learned. Its a daily battle to make the right choices but I do it cause I know being physically healthy and nurished is the start to a better life. Its not about food or weight but the reasons so when people say why don't you eat to her it doesn't help. She has to work on the reasons behind the ed and face them but being nursihed is a must. The best for others to do is encourage her to get support in therapy and nutritionist. You can tell her about me and my long history and how I lost everything but before the pn I was rebuilding my life with school,friend,job but I had to gain and reach a healthy weight to get to that. Its a hard adjustment getting used to a new body,lifestyle,and coping mechanism but its the only chance for better.She can email me too. You may think she won't but if you give her the address she just may. You would be suprised deep down I'm sure she wants to recover.
Todays goal to buy pans and figure out my move issue because now it may be CA where I was planning on moving after my treatment cause I knew a few people and like the area but will see. Just wish my mom would be closer for support. I'm not big on change which was an issue before and the pn has forced me to have to which is hard. Not only with the move but other issues.