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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: NW Ohio
Posts: 2,450
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Magnate
Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: NW Ohio
Posts: 2,450
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Originally Posted by Jan4you
Greenjeans...thanks for you sweet sentiments. It helps.
But lately, I do feel sorta left out or lost. I dont have ANY real DX and feel farther and farther away from a MS DX that I am not sure why Id be in LIMBO any longer. Just love you guys so much~!
If I do have Narcolepsy I dont want to leave this forum ya know?
I would even miss my MS neuro. Isnt that too weird??
In my heart I know there is something wrong and more than one thing too.
Its not that I WANT a DX but so much goes on and yet an answer would be of comfort ya know. A name to the enemy so you know who you're fighting eh?
Anyone else feel like this? I know this will pass...it has before.
AGAIN I CHOOSE WELLNESS... whatever that will look and FEEL like LOL
Jan
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I'll tell you what I told Gazelle :
You need to clear your mind, take a nice calm week or month, whatever you need. Relax. Let the answer float to the top of your head like a Magic 8 Ball. It's in there, you know it. You just think too much, you know too much.
And as nice as validation from any doc would be, validating yourself would give you real peace.
I think sometimes the waffling within ourselves (is it ms? is it something else? Worse?) is the stress that exacerbates the illness, puts our lives on hold, makes us feel the bars of the limbo cage more than the physicality of it.
More than anything that happens to our bodies, it's what happens to our minds in all of this that hobbles us.
I know it messed with my head. I will not allow that anymore.
I know what I know about my health, my diseases and disorders. And the answers came to me when I let it go, and let the truth float to the top.
After everything I've been through, I wonder if I'd believe anything a dr told me anyhow... so it was important for me to know what I thought, with or without a dx.
I still want them to dx me. I still want them to tx me. But even if neither happens, I know I will be okay. Maybe not my body, but my mind will be.
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