'Saw hypnotherapist today.
I think she finally gets the sleep issue.

I told her that I have so much anxiety about sleep that I am fighting panic all evening as the bed time gets closer. Eventually I have to use the force of my will to stare down the panic and get in bed. This morning it was 5:00 am when I was able to do that. I was asleep in about 15 minutes.

I am sleep deprived right now and evey moment of every day.
Mari