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Wisest Elder Ever
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Join Date: Aug 2006
Location: cajun country, lafayette Louisiana
Posts: 24,238
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Wisest Elder Ever
Join Date: Aug 2006
Location: cajun country, lafayette Louisiana
Posts: 24,238
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Originally Posted by Me BP?
.........I put on a happy face and chatted as I walked out the door. As I drove home I became increasingly anxious. By the time I got back home I was a mess. I left her several messages. I was extremely emotional and having a lot of "bad" thoughts and urges to cut. She told me to journal and to email her. After journaling I was able to get in touch with some strong feelings of abandonment, fear and non-existence. Maybe I was right all along. Maybe what's inside of me is simply too much for her to absorb.
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Dear Girlie,
I am glad that your journaling helped you to get some of your feelings out.
And am glad that she allows you to email her.
Putting on a happy face really doesn't help...do you think you did that to try to reassure her?
Does she allow you to give her or get a hug from her?
Hugs are great therapy.
here is one for you.
bizi
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Hattie the black and white one wrestling with hazel, calico. lost hattie to cancer.....
Happiness is a decision....
150mg of lamictal 2x a day
haldol 5mg 2x a day
1mg of cogentin 2x a day
klonipin , 1mg at night
I will not give up in this weight loss journey, nor this need to be AF. 3-19-13=156, 6-7-13=139, 8-19-13=149, 11-12-13=140, 6-28-14=157, 7-24-14=149, 9-24-14=144, 1-12-15=164, 2-28-15=149, 4-21-15=143, 6-26-15=138.5, 7-22-15=146, 8-24-15=151, 9-15-15=145, 11-1-15=137, 11-29-15=143, 1-4-16=152, 1-26-16=144, 2-24-16=150, 8-15-16=163, 1-4-17=169, 9-20-17=174, 11-17-17=185.6, 3-22-18=167.9, 8-31-18= 176.3, 3-6-19=190.8 5-30-20=176, 1-4-21=202, 10-4-21= 200.8,12-10-21=186, 3-26-22=180.3, 7-30-22=188, 10-15-22=180.9,
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