I'm not sure if she's helping me or not Mari. You have no idea how mixed up I am. I'm not sure if I belong going there or any where for that matter. And I don't know about her heart or where it's at. Again she took another phone call when I was in there. I'm really doubting that she can help me and I'm just wasting my time.

No Bizi no touching allowed and I understand that, just a handshake. Maybe I do put on a happy face just to make her feel like she's doing her job. I just don't know about much anymore but I'm wearing myself out trying to analyze everything and everybody. I know I'm getting that urge to retreat from everything but I can't help it.

I'm taking 450 mg of lithium twice a day. I just took the evening one and I guess I'll just drink and call the pharmacy in the morning. Hooper's already in bed and I'm joining her soon.