hi monique,

welcome to NT.
wow. you're a real success in my book.
what accomplishments you already have.
you are managing so much in your life in a positivie manner.
i'm sure that will con't.

i have gotten scared along the way too.
when that happens i try to come up with a plan. having a plan to deal with fears, and happenstances in my life is what keeps the fear in check.

i was dx'd at 53. that was 5 yrs ago. i was a NICU RN for 35 yrs and couldn't keep up with the physical demand. but, i've remained active. i'm still independent and drive. i figure if my legs don't let me drive my hands will.

stay positive. don't give up. you may have to make some adjustments but you'll find a way around it. listening to your body is a biggy too. give yourself some time to rest when needed.

i know you're going to do this.
hope to hear more of your posts.