hi monique,

welcome to NT.
wow. you're a real success in my book.
what accomplishments you already have.
you are managing so much in your life in a positivie manner.
i'm sure that will con't.

i have gotten scared along the way too.
when that happens i try to come up with a plan. having a plan to deal with fears, and happenstances in my life is what keeps the fear in check.

i was dx'd at 53. that was 5 yrs ago. i was a NICU RN for 35 yrs and couldn't keep up with the physical demand. but, i've remained active. i'm still independent and drive. i figure if my legs don't let me drive my hands will.

stay positive. don't give up. you may have to make some adjustments but you'll find a way around it. listening to your body is a biggy too. give yourself some time to rest when needed.

i know you're going to do this.
hope to hear more of your posts.

Hey Monique, you're already tops in my books! You've done a marvelous job raising your children and studying as well. I (and lots of other MSers) know how hard that is!

Congratulations with your achievemants so far, but you have to get on with life.

After the divorce from my first husband I worked full time. I raised a small daughter and went to Night School most nights of the week to get my Bachelor of Health Science Degree.

If I'd have thought the way that you're thinking, I'd probably have lost custody of my daughter when it went to court all those years ago. I wouldn't have had the courage to fight like I did.

I'd never have achieved what I was so very proud of, my Bachelor's Degree. I'd have never advanced through the ranks of my profession which was a registered nurse.

I'd have never regained the confidence that I had lost along the way.

You have to believe you can do it Monique. Once you lose that I believe that you lose the will to fight.

Hi,
Yes.. I think I am just getting through the whole dealing with Anger.. Sadness and mourning the life I thought I would have and moving to being happy and grateful for the things I have like my kids! I am proud of my sons and how well they did in school this year and I'm proud of going back to school and pulling a 3.94 while having a grad. assistantship & an internship at the Hospice.

My ex is taking my kids to my ex inlaws tomorrow so I have a day to myself. I don't know what I'll do but it'll probably involve ice cream and movies!! I am also waiting to hear back from a clinic about the oral pill study I pre-interviewed for and we'll see if I get in that so I'm optimistic. Thank you for writing!

Monique

Hi,

Yes.. I think that is the hardest part for me, understanding my body sometimes will do what it wants to whether I like it or not. I was slightly embarrassed when I had the muscle spasms in class and people were freaking out and calling 911 thinking I was having a stroke.

I was having a miserable time for the first couple weeks. I was very down but I think I'm coming out of it by meeting people on here and trying to move on with my life and knowing MS will change things but I'll get through it all somehow.

I think what really bothered me, I was working in Hospice this past semester and two people in our program had MS and one was only 21 and she wasn't doing too well when I left.

I think tomorrow I will eat ice cream and watch movies and relax. Thank you for writing to me, I really appreciate it!

Monique