Ali,

I'm so sorry for what you are going thru. My girls lost their grandfather the same way. I know it is so very hard to go thru. Just remember that he knew you loved him. As a parent and a grandparent, I know I'm loved, even tho I don't hear it everyday. Please keep eating and taking care of yourself. The last thing your grandfather would want is for you to suffer more then you are. Honor his memory, but honor his life even more. Grow to be the beautiful young woman that you will become, and do it because of him, and in memory of him.
take your time to grieve. He will always be with you, not in body, but in memories and love.

PM me if you want.

Hugs
Mary