OMG. i read the thread just a bit earlier and posted just now before i saw this. had to delete my post. boy was i "off." oh i am soooo sorry.

i don't know what to say. anyway, if nothing else, it's over.

allow yourself to cry. it is something you need to go through, yes. but crying also produces endorphins which will give you natural relief. i think the beers just took the edge off that let you feel depression that was there already, and pain you were holding back on. but letting it out is better than drinking it away.

you will be moving... at SOME point. 5 years down the road, this will be an experience you will be proud of. Going to court without representation is no joke. That lawyer that quacked out on you man, that just makes me steam.

Anyway, it IS over. just be with whatever you feel, and that will be the best way to deal. you WILL feel better.

when you feel better, i want to ask what this means - your losing - what does that entail... but don't worry about posting that until you feel like it. it is real late here and i have to go to bed right now. but i'm thinking of you.

today i had a spell where i was kinda bummed out... i won't get into it but i remembered a line from Led Zep... ususally towards ppl who do me wrong... "Your time is gonna come."

But today i thought, hey, hopefully one day, my time is gonna come... for something good to happen. so i will leave you with that thought... in the POSITIVE sense... things may suck now, and may have for a long time... but... Your time is gonna coooome.... a time for you to blossom and grow. The pain is a part of the journey. Nothin' says it's here to stay.

~ waves ~