Dear Befuddled,

It sounds like some situational depression.
Still, it would help to call the pdoc and check in. Maybe you can get a med adjustment for now.


My tdoc has taught me to think about one thing at a time. Also to think about that one thing in the most positive light possible. We benefit from trying to see the best we can in our situation.
--- even if the situation is not best, we can still try to see it as good.

Also, we need to break it down.
Often what we are going through it part of a PROCESS. It is not a one time deal that can be solved with one more meeting or one more call to the authorities.
We need to do one thing at at time and think of it as a journey with many turns and stops along the way.

And things I can't handle, she tells me to flat out drop them right now as soon as I tell her about them.
Many many things, she tells me are not worth my mental health.

My mental health is more important than ANYTHING else.
If something interferes with it, it is out of my life. Gone. Bye Bye. I stop thinking about it and treat it as if it is solved or gone a way.

This includes certain family members, certain people at work, many chores, even personal hygiene. If it causes distress, it is gone. That gives me room in my life to focus on staying stable.

Staying stable takes up HUGE amounts of energy and focus. I only have so much of those to go around.
So I ration them carefully. I am very stingy.

Good luck Barabara. You have been doing well.
You missed two classes at night. That happens. You did your best and it didn't work out for you to go. It's ok. It very much ok. Know that you are a good person and move on.

M.

Thank you Mari. That is a good point that you made. My mental health is the most important thing. I am going to call my nurse pratitioner and see if I can get in sometime soon. I'm going to call her today when the office opens.

I've got to be in court in 2 1/2 hours against my landlord. I have been working on how to present myself in court. I don't know how I'm going to get through this as I hate court. I have a feeling though that things will be fine. My nerves are shot. I made an appointment with my nurse practitioner for tomorrow to see if a medication change is in need which I'm sure it is.

Is your lawyer going to be handling this?

If not, take your clues from the judge.
Follow the judge.

Good for you for making an appointment.

M.

Hi Mari,

My lawyer told me she could not help me with this case today. She recomended another attorney but he does not take this type of case. What really bothers me about my attorney is that she charged me for going over my lease agreement and going over the cetified letter to send to my landlord and then drops me cold. I hate her right now.

I hope that my church lady friend will pick me up today to take me to court. She'll be good for me. She won't be able to attest to anything as I've only known her for the past couple of months. But at least if she picks me up I'll have some one there with me. She could be intimadated to leave though. My next door neighbor told her last week she could not park anywhere near her apartment. That's the only other place to park as people live on the other side of me and behind me that take up parking on my side. My next door neighbor side of her aparment has a very large space before another apartment while I don't.

I can't think anymore.

I lost in court today. I'm so angry at the moment. There is never justice in the world for me.

Dear Barbara,

Lots of hugs.

I'm sorry that you went through that.

M.

lots of hugs
bobby

Thank you Mari and Bobby. I had a couple of beers and they just made me depressed. I can not stop crying. I guess I'll just have to go through this tonight.

Oh barbara,
I am sorry that you are so upset over this. I can't imagine how scarey it was being in court with out representation. I am glad that your new friend showed up and took you to court. one dependable person on your side.
beth