Beth,
Yes, I see that you are rattled about this.

It does not make any sense to me that you beating yourself up.

You still need to call the pdoc and let her know that the past two days have been more intense in this regard than usual. Make sure she knows how you feel tonight. You can read / fax your post to her. She might not make any changes, but you need to be on record about what is going on.

Does your pdoc talk to you about adult self and child self?
Are those the things that she is working on with you?


M.