what with the only 3 hours of sleep and getting up early to have our chimney worked on ... kitchen covered over and drilled, heater pulled out (last night)...

i forgot all about my Zoloft this morning!!! that's 2ce in a week. it ain't gonna work if i keep forgetting it.

this upheaval was very stressful today, and in the middle i got a call from the consultant saying he's gonna put me in for a Java job on a newer platform and to study... throughout this, some emotional stuff that hits home has built up. today things kinda took a strange turn and i went from "just" very worried, to feeling completely powerless and party to something destructive, that i am going to have to step out of...

i am quite upset by now. and have to get up early tomorrow again.

i just took a full milligram of my benzo, instead of a half....

~ waves ~