Very appropriate dear friend. I know that you remember my talking about walking around the cemetary where Michael is buried with a loaded gun just months after his death.

I remember talking to my wonderful dr. who lost a neice to suicide and she told me "don't do anything stupid!"

You are soooo doing the right thing Doody...you are talking about your feelings with professionals. People cannot help you if they don't know how you feel.

Suicide is an awful legacy to leave those you love...and some people see it as giving permission to the act.