Thanks Koala for explaining this to me.

Getting the drugs right is SO frustrating .. it is to me, it must be to the Doctor who is treating me too.

I feel so low at the moment .. I've not had a spasm as bad as that for a good while. I'm usually able to tell when one is coming on and either get the valium/diazepam out, or get on the bed and rest and read. This one took me by surprise and I guess I felt sorry for myelf. I was so piddled off with Mike for walking off with the trolley too .. he does sometimes get so impatient at having to walk at my speed as he's always walked fast.
This just makes me feel a bit of a failure and a bit useless ..

Just the mood I'm in at the moment I think.

I guess I'm getting ready for Thursday and my pre op and the meeting with my new surgeon.

xxx and hugs