Thanks Steve.

i feel incredibly fragile today. like i am made of glass... vulnerable to being dropped/shattered. not real anxious (only mildly), but like if i try to do anything i am going to disintegrate or something. i might need to do something small, just to prove to myself, it is not true. maybe that would help.

then i might watch Poirot (nice, safe, clean whodunit, based on Agatha Christie mysteries), if i can concentrate on it. my concentration has been off as of last night. i couldn't even concentrate on stupid games.

My father cooked me lunch. he would have made it for himself but he hates to eat alone. and it was a dish i enjoy. so it was very nice.

i hope you are feeling better also. the holiday stuff is putting pressure on me, but also the fact i was supposed to be ready for a class in January. and i'm just so not. i am disappointed in myself, and afraid of being out of work a long time again, and that i will end up destitute and homeless.

i read the Bible passages you indicated to me. they were helpful in part... i will explain the "in part"... separately, another time. anyway, thank you, again, for that too.

~ waves ~