dear ginnie

unfortunately we can't pick our family
but you can or won't allow it in your life
and move on
now please don't misunderstand
i miss the idea of a mother
she still lives
my feeling to date
is so deep
i will regret
for i have no respect
she is not due the honor
someone who will not own up to the
lies and truths that still
continue to surface
some may say i am relentless
if i fell strongly of its ramifications
such as mine
something i know is not allowed
i am suppose to honor my father and mother
i honored so much my little body suffered
hard unusual tasks were expected
from my sister and myself
bottom line i wouldn't be me
if i weren't true to myself
i miss a mother
but would rather do without
it hurts toooooo much
shame on me!
it is what it is
i understand