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Originally Posted by nwsmith1984
My fellow hermit (Pete),
I'm sorry to hear your living pretty much the way I am...it's not the business. Thank you for spacing out and numbering your reply, too.
Your light sensitivity sounds pretty vicious. I, too, am struggling with light sensitivity...as you can see in my signature. I'm not sure it's as serious as your's, but it's pretty bad. I have my computer/laptop screen turned all the way down...and when I'm in the dark room, that still doesn't help. My smart phone is on the lowest setting as well. I'm going to have to try that transparent cover over the screen thing. You described it pretty good in a prior post...it's like when your taking a nap and someone comes in and turns the lights on suddenly...lol.
Are you able to work?
What kind of OCD were/are you struggling with? I'm dealing with some extreme OCD myself...I don't even want to talk about it in public, maybe I'll PM you sometime about it?
Thank you so much for the encouraging words...It truly, truly means a lot to me. I'm sorry it took me a minute to respond - I've been screwed up all day and just barely pulled myself free of that uncomfortable, debilitating mind-state.
Thanks...  |
I'm barely able to work. Right now I have an editing assistantship through my department which is only about 5 hours/week. It's mostly proofreading and copyediting hard copies of accepted journal submisssions, which I can manage, but it's just about all the reading I can do. Going through a volume of papers in a period of a few days stresses me out so much that I have to take a break from reading for a week or so afterward, and usually by the time I'm ready to start reading again, it's time for another round of editing. This is contract work that ends at the end of May; as of that time, I will be unemployed and, if I'm lucky, on Medicaid.
My OCD is "pure obsessional," which is a misnomer, since pure obsessionals have mental compulsions. But the gist of it is that I get horrible intrusive thoughts stuck in my head that cause unbearable anxiety. I've been managing it pretty well the past few years, but it still pops up now and then. Feel free to shoot me a private message anytime about your OCD. There is nothing you could tell me that would shock me; I've heard about all the different bizarre subtypes. (Anyone on this forum should feel free to email me with OCD questions.)
It sounds like you're feeling a little better now. If so, I'm very glad. Hang in there, man. When you're sitting there in the dark too messed up to do anything, remember that I'm probably doing the same thing.
Pete