i am so sorry you are going through all this. thank goodness your husband isn't taking it out on you. he sounds like a very good person who is over his head. you don't sound as if you are over your head but you must be. I know of somebody who buys pipe tobacco and rolls her own cigarettes with a machine and saves a lot of money. I had to give it up because of money but it is a big comfort. beer is a big comfort too. I am glad the pills are helping your anxiety. I can understand why you are depressed. As Bizi said, you have so much on your plate. please come here more often at least to vent.
fondly
bobby