Thanks for telling us what is really going on, your honesty is beautiful. Only y can decide if you have a problem with alcohol. If I listened to my family and friends, I would still be drinking. My family thought I needed alanon. My friends didn't want to lose their drinking buddy. This guy at a meeting I go to says " it doesn't matter how much you drink, it doesn't matter how long you drink, it matters what happens to you when you do drink."

When I for sober, I went to the CSAC (don't recall what that stands for substance abuse counseling or something) office, I didn't tell anyone I was going, I was just tired of feeling the way I was feeling. I was one person by day and one person by night. Sometimes I couldn't make the transition.

Only you can decide if you have a problem with alcohol. I hope you feel better soon.

Hilary