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Originally Posted by Debbie D
AynaDee, so sorry to hear that your cousin was in so much pain that he felt leaving would be better...
i HAVE been in that place...it's not that you don't know you'll cause loved ones pain...it's that you feel they'd be better off with you gone. I know it's irrational, but when you are in such despair, and feel that there is no way out (another irrational thought, I know), then death seems like the only choice.
I hope that you understand that he was trying to end the horrible suffering he was experiencing...  |
Thanks Debbie. thats what hurts the most.. Was that he was that deep into despair. We shouldve all been there for him and shown him the love he needed.
My heart will always have a huge chunk missing. Everytime I would see him the very first thing to come out of his mouth was "Ana, how are you feelin?" Normally I hate when people ask me that, its like theyre obligated, but with him you could hear the compassion and concern in his voice.
Things will never be the same. My heart will always hurt for him. Im glad he left me with the memories, but id rather him be walkin this earth with us.
It just sucks to think of how sad and lonely he was to make such a decision
