Thanks Debbie. thats what hurts the most.. Was that he was that deep into despair. We shouldve all been there for him and shown him the love he needed.

My heart will always have a huge chunk missing. Everytime I would see him the very first thing to come out of his mouth was "Ana, how are you feelin?" Normally I hate when people ask me that, its like theyre obligated, but with him you could hear the compassion and concern in his voice.

Things will never be the same. My heart will always hurt for him. Im glad he left me with the memories, but id rather him be walkin this earth with us.

It just sucks to think of how sad and lonely he was to make such a decision