I think my chemistry is getting better again. This morning my phone (I use vonage which is great) and my internet weren't working. My tv cable box were working. There were no lights on my cable modem. At first I panicked.
Then I started using my head and thought maybe Abby stepped on the switch of the power strip. That wasn't the case. Then I just unplugged the cord from the modem and replugged it and voila everything worked.
I even got more sleep last night. I kept on waking up but I got back to sleep.
Maybe today I can tackle some more papers to throw out.
Bobby

Yippee....you sound even better now......I am happy for you.

Your strong, keep it up up and upbeat!!!

Lots of Hugs, Nikko:)

Great thinking on your part bobby!
good luck with the paperwork....
bizi

thank you
even though i got more sleep last night, I was still so tired today. I did manage to read a book. I came up with an insight about responsibility. I had been given so much responsibility as a child, and then continued to assume so much uncalled for responsibility as an adult, now I think I am rebelling against it...now I have to relearn what is good responsibility and debilitating responsibility. Since I have generalized anxiety disorder, that doesn't help matters.
Oh my friend Ron is now stabilized and it turns out he had a bleeding ulcer and THEY STOPPED THE BLEEDING. I also found out when the ambulance came he didn't want to go to the hospital but when one of his friends asked him if he wanted to live, he said YES....I was so afraid this time he was going to die.
I think I have only one more day of the men drilling on my terrace. It is really hard on the nerves. I also had my bathtub unclogged. With my exaggerated worries, I was afraid they were going to have to rip out the pipes. It took so long to unclog it with a snake.
I didn't throw out any papers.
I put the pillow to a lot of use the last twenty four hours.
Bobby

Dear Bobby,
The construction in your apt seems endless. And I guess it feels endless. I will be glad when your apt settles down a bit.
Good news that your friend Ron was helped in the hosptial.
Pillows are good.
I forgot about my night meds tonight and so took the klonopin a few hours later than I would normally. I hope that I can sleep tomorrow and not feel hung over --but then I think I feel hung over most days.
Mari

my chemistry is definitely getting better. I had some earth shattering news about my finances this weekend which I don't want to go into but so far it hasn't destroyed me. I did get bad stomach pains and a splitting headache but they eventually went away and yesterday I spent most of the time in bed or doing correspondence or on the phone with my dear extremely helpful and comforting friend.
Today I feel fine. I have to cut expenses. I am cutting out the extra insurance I took out to cover the medicare gap and I am probably going to see my doctor once every three weeks instead of every two weeks. I don't know what else I can cut back on. My financial cushion is gone...and right now after recovering from shock, I AM NOT A BASKET CASE.
My kitty cat Abby has been entertaining me big time. Lately she has been doing running leaps into the wall unit and speeding behind the tv and coming out the other side of the tv and looking at me. She has disconnected the tv cable box numerous times now and it is still disconnected but boy is she entertaining. I noticed that one of her front fangs is gone. My kitty cat Pumpkins, half Aby, also lost a front fang...She is eating well so I don't know when it happened, but i don't think she is in pain.
Bobby

Dear Morgy,
Oh dear. Money matters. As I was reading I was hoping you were going to say you discovered some money, not the other way around. How dreadful.

And yet you say you were not thrown for a loop by the news. That is an achievement.

Mari

Dear Bobby,
Wow that is difficult about the financial side of things...am very proud that you are not letting it get to you.
Way to go!!!!!
bizi

I don't know if I am beginning to turn a little hypomanic...time will tell
My psychiatrist's cleaning woman came today and stayed for about five minutes. She looked around and seemed unhappy. She asked what was she expected to do lol....For me the kitchen and bathroom were really clean and the back of the apartment that is the living space was pretty in okay order..but I guess I am not "normal"....She had also asked for eighty dollars on the phone and I got her down to sixty five and she commutes from Philadelphia and I looked up the commuting costs by train and bus and boy they were high. The session gracefully ended when she saw one of my cats and she said she is very allergic to cats. Then I smiled and said I have three cats. Then she made a graceful and fast exit. Thank goodness she had come into the city for another appointment. I don't really know if she is allergic to cats or not. My doctor said she is very bright.
Then all energy drained me and i fell into a depression and napped and then got out of it and read another book. I slept for a couple of hours tonight and starting another book now and keep my mind whirling off of financial matters.
As a reaction, I did buy a couple of more cds by Zucchero on half.com.
Bobby

Dear Morgy,
At the risk of generalizing. I never met a cleaning lady who was not a little weird.
I wonder what she expected/hoped to see that she did not. Strange.

Sleep is good.
Mari