I crashed yesterday afternoon and slept three hours and then at night I slept and slept and finally I am up and running again. I guess I am not going into a hypomanic phase....sleep is good...I was afraid for a while I was going to be on my two and three hour sleep pattern again.
I am going to try to hire the guy I interviewed who wasn't afraid of my apartment. He is expensive but my friend said she would help pay for him. She also said she would pay for my vet expensives. Hopefully they won't happen. This summer I spent six or seven hundred dollars on my kitty cats at the vets.
Right now I am listening to Sheryl Crow's best hits. I love the song Picture with Kid Rock...I never heard of him before until I got this album from half.com. Then I am going to listen to Let me Rai by Cheb Mami...I heard him on a Zucchero cd and thought at first he was a woman lol...it is middle eastern...I even worked on a webpage yesterday on mast cell tumors in cats and dogs....in the morning when I had so much energy and was really afraid that I was hypomanic.
Bobby
ps I think this is the last day the workmen will be out on my terrace HOORAY

Hi,
How are you feeling today? Sleep is good. Aren't pets the best! They seem to help me through so much.
I understand the financial problems, I am in the same place and it isn't fun.
Actually, it does a job on my anxiety and nerves. Go easy. You seem to be handling it well.
Today is my birthday and feeling down, not doing anything, probably better off.

Hugs, Nikko

I am so sorry you are feeling down on your birthday...rats...
yes we are so blessed to love our pets so much....this morning I was talking in my head to Morgy and Hammy...we had a very interesting conversation...I have been told I can communicate with animals so I don't know if I am really conversing with Hammy and Morgy or just making the whole thing up....
This afternoon was really unusual. My mother's housekeeper has kept in touch with me even though my mother has been dead for eight years. Elaine lives in Connecticut. She called me this afternoon to tell me that an airplane crashed two blocks away from me into a building. She could hear all the helicopters and sirens on the phone. I told her I was trying to figure out what all the action was about and thanked her for her concern for me. Then I turned on the tv and watched it for a long time. I had no desire to go near it since I have already been in an explosion and badly burnt. Thank goodness there were only two deaths and no critical injuries.
Bobby

Dear Bobby,
You have a good friend if she wants to help you with your apt and your cats.

That plane crash is weird. And it had a Yankee pitcher in it.
Sorry that you had to deal with that.
Be well.
Mari

I have two friends who are treasures -I am blessed....
I forgot to add before I was going to drink a lot of grapefruit juice for dieting but a friend said I can't do that because I take lipitor...here we try to help ourselves and put ourselves in danger.
I hope the FFA,if that is the agency, changes the rules about small planes flying over the east river and the hudson. That plan could have crashed into the hospitals very near by or the power station very near by-somebody said how a terrorist could load highly explosive material on a small plane and really do a number and wouldn't even have to file a flight plan the way the system is now in effect...Living in Manhattan definitely has its thrills, even if one doesn't step outside ones apartment...I am always afraid of a helicopter crashing on my terrace lol (as in gallows humor)
Bobby

Dr Moussavian is a treasure. I saw him yesterday and told him the news of my financial problems. He took out a pencil and took down the cold hard facts about my budget. He didn't think I was crazy at all about my future plans of probably trying to move to Ashville North Carolina or dropping my extra insurance, seeing him only every third week and getting generic paxil which doesn't work as well as regular paxil.
I told him he was so wonderful and a patient's dream and he should look at himself in the mirror everyday and tell himself how wonderful he was and that he eased his patient's burdens so much and later I told him he was perfect even if he has some flaws lol. I also told him I was smart lol...
He was concerned that I still don't have cleaning help and told me to work on it harder. I told him I stopped the depakote and he told me to resume taking it.
He reinforced me so much I was soaring. I also told him for a while I thought I was going hypomanic. During the session, I obviously showed traces of it.
I was so unbelievably relieved that he didn't think I was overreacting and that it was so important that I was already working on a plan.
He reminded me that senior citizen housing probably provided car service for shopping etc so I wouldn't need a car and workers in the south were probably a lot more nurturing than in the north.
Bobby

Hi, Your p-doc sure is helpful. I think you are making the right decisions and taking his advice on your meds is very important.

Hang in there, sending an angel to watch over you.


Hugs, Nikko

yes I ditto what nikko said....
you are doing very well with all of this...
((((HUGS)))
bizi

Dear Morgy,
Ashville is a big change from NYC! I imagine that you would like it if you plan for it like you are already doing.
I know someone who lives in the down townish section. They like the music and the people. It is an expensive area by N.C. standards.

I hear that the view of the mountaints is nice.

One caveat: it is possible to find wonderful drs in any part of the country, but no place compares to NYC for the standard, quality, and availabilty of care.

Mari
ps
It is neat that your pdoc cares about your cleaning lady/man situation. I guess he knows that this is an important issue.

Hi
I grew up in Hartford Conn and went to a small girl's school in West Hartford so don't really consider myself a big city person deep down. My graduating class had twenty eight girls. We also lived on a very quiet street.
I read that the average rent in Ashville was in the four hundred dollar range and the average income was in the 30,000 dollar range. In New York City I wonder if you can get garage space for four hundred dollars including tax...(I haven't looked at the rates in a long time so I am only guessing)....HUD has senior citizen housing throughout the country and according to their website you only have to pay one tenth of your monthly income for rent or something else which ever is higher.
My apartment is in a decline again...not a rapid one. I might hear from Georgy tomorrow, the fellow I interviewed a few weeks ago for cleaning my apartment.
Bobby
ps I will send you a private email