I hope you can find their phone number so that you can plan the outing better. I would hate for you to go to all of the trouble to get there and then they are closed.

The kitties are fighting at times youngest hattie is such a bully she bites hazel's( yearling) ears and hazel cries....cats will be cats, they play fight like this all day. chase each other around they really get along well until hattie gets too worked up and really goes after hazel and fur goes flying. Harriet (11 yera old) just sleeps most of the day ......just thought I would share this with you...hope you don't mind.
bizi

i found them on the internet and their hours were posted.
i went to save their number in my cellphone and a bulb lit up in my head... maybe i did when i went there last time... indeed i had.

silly wabbit! well, just as well i didn't remember having the number. finding the hours on internet was free - the call would not have been.

ok. now to do some dishes... sigh.

regarding MY TAPER

next dose cut is scheduled for Friday but i might put it off till after this deadline. or i could cut by only one drop which will drop my level only negligibly.

The flip side is i wonder (from having gained energy) if the benzo might have been robbing me of energy/motivation all this time. Maybe my "block" isn't just psychological ... maybe there is some chemical apathy in there! I could use more of that "good energy" right now!

anyway i see my pdoc on Thursday so i will tell him all of this stuff, see how i feel then, and see what he has to say about everything.



~ waves ~

I sooooo do not mind. Quite the opposite! I miss having cats! I enjoy hearing your "cat-tales"

Thank you for sharing!

i hope Hazel learns to "cope" soon though... for her sake.

I once lived with a kitten who, just introduced and maybe 8 weeks old? used to literally chase and assault a very tranquil but long and lanky 6mo old male... who was already established in the household. like, territory? what's yours is mine, and what's mine is mine, and your tail is mine too... hey, it moves, *bat, bat, swat* ... The "poor" older kitten would just move his tail, change seat... in general try to stay out of the way... even go hide... with the odd vocalized complaint. the little one used to set up ambushes ... steal up on the couch and wait for him to walk underneath then, pounce down on him, fangs and claws flared!

She was agrrrrrrrrrrressive, boy! You know, she climbed up my legs *through* my jeans when i was getting their food once. can you say OUCHY OUCHY OUCHY OUCHY OWWWWWWWWWCHEEEEEEE!!!!! and, thank goodness i was wearing full length jeans, for i doubt bare legs would have made any difference to her!

yes cats will be cats. gotta love 'em. and you can find quite some characters... like people.

~ waves ~

I'd love to respond, but my head has gone for a six together with my body, so I can't concentrate enough to get into even the tiniest details.
I hope thiongs work out OK.
Love to everybody.

Dear Isis,

That's quite alright... well, not really, not for you! ... but you know what i mean... thank you for popping by all the same, themoreso really.

I appreciate the kind thoughts. And I do hope you feel better soon all around!

Now, you take it easy... take care of you.



~ waves ~

Dear Waves,
You sound like you are managing -- that is good.
That would be something if the new "dose" is helping you with motivation levels.
I think it is normal to have concerns about
1) going through a change
2) starting out on a long process that you are documenting
3) having concerns about the unknown that you might face a long this journey


Be as gentle as possible with yourself.
M.

saw pdoc, told all and thensome.

he said it was indeed plausible for the benzo to have caused apathy. i asked if i seemed like i might be getting hypo. he said definitely a bit... and to hold the taper for now.

heck! why can't i just get un-apathetic, why must i go from bozo to hypo?

&)#*(*&$#(*)&^&@(&$

Well, at least it's the kind that feels good... except when something crosses/stresses me also some of the impulses are already overwhelming.

i WANT the energy, i craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaave the energy and i crave bunches of other things........... things are not ruinous so far... but certainly time to carry minimum cash and leave all plastic home! (not too compatible with gift shopping! )

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i see pdoc again on Tuesday... he says wait till then (no extra meds until then). heck, i don't want to get worse, then again, i can't do a whole freakin gram of depakote (am already at 800 mg) it will make me fat probably and Zyprexa, hah!

good news: we have Geodon now!
bad news: it is not prescribable except for ACUTE MANIA or SCHIZOPHRENIA.

geez, thanks the rest of us have to get diabetes or TD i suppose.

~ waves ~

I use to be energetic,but being on these three medicines makes me tired,and I lack the get up,and go also.

Being on the meds helps me emotionally though. Not fully. It's like taking a over the counter cold medication for a cold. BF

Dear Waves,
That is good about less apathy and perhaps more energy.
And that is good that the pdoc is able to watch for signs of mania for you.

It's hard to write about benzos --very complicated -- perhaps many of us (all?) have / had issues. So I don't know what to say.

Mostly I'm saying that you are following a good path and doing well.
Keep monitoring yourself with help from the pdoc and keep money and assess to it at home.

M.

Dear Steve,
Tell the pdoc to give you stronger stuff.
Tell him / her you don't need the equivalent of over the counter cold medicine.
Tell her what you need.
M.