I am so glad to read this tonight bobby!
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

That is so great.
You reached out and she heard you.
M.

i am so glad your sister is being supportive!

love
waves

it was also cute that in the email she wrote "stop eating" and now i have to write her and explain how I can't seem to. i think the eating is attached to the anger. the anger is attached to the bipolar. i broke the atkins diet yesterday by having pasta. then the anger went away and then the hopelessness of being a whale remained. while i was eating the pasta(twice in one day-once at two in the morning) i was a happy camper =-
i guess i will continue to try every day until i succeed. I hAVE had this anger for a few months now...i don't know if it is because of the welbutrin or when i started to know i was going to have to go to medical specialists. that was the time i started gaining more weight.
now i have to figure how to convey to my sister how much joy she filled me with
bobby

it is factual that we crave carbs.
the third day is the hardest...you can do this bobby!
there is an abreviated version of this diet...Dr. Gott he writes in the paper...
no potatoes, no pasta, no rice no flour no sugar
(stay away from white stuff)
the south beach diet is less restrictive more of a meditaranian diet.
don't know if this is helpful or not...
sorry, you can join the diet thread if you want to.
bizi

thanks Bizi...i read one of the atkins's books today....i don't have that much of a sugar craving but i do have a food craving. i am still angry. i looked up welbutrin and saw it makes a lot of people angry.
i also called my insurance co and they haven't given approval for any of the three tests yet. I don't know if i am going to have the test scheduled for thursday. that gets me furious.
i have to leave dr m. that fills me with terror. it takes too much time to spend ten minutes with him and he longer longer has that stabilizing effect on me. i am going to tell him today that i am shopping for a new psychiatrist.
right now abby is scratching on my leg...she just stopped.
if i can start reallly on the diet thread i will join. it is so frustrating right now to still be gaining weight but i am so happy for those of us who are losing weight
bobby

i too got worried about participating in the diet thread. for a long time i didn't because i wasn't technically on a diet - i'm still not and have no intention of doing a formal "diet" - i very very seldom do. i'm trying to cut back on some things, and improve others. each of us is taking a different tack, even though several of us have weight loss as a goal. you will fit right in as of any time - you are already on this wagon as i see it, with trying the atkins diet, reading up on it... whether you go that route or not you are trying to figure things out - you are ALREADY doing work, woman! (catch me reading a diet book, HA! )

~ waves ~

p.s. i hope the insurance gets their act together with regard to your tests. sigh.

right now i think the atkins diet is the onlything that might work for me. i am still so hungry..oh well
i am filled with terror. i see dr. m today and tell him that i am going to start looking for another psychiatrist. eeks
bobby

Good luck with your appointment. I think it's nice that you can talk to Dr. M. freely about it. If you have a list of preferred providers or similar - for coverage, perhaps bring that list with you? He might be able to advise you as to who might be good for you (or whom to avoid! lol).

love
~ waves ~

i am staying with dr. m but instead of twice a month it is once a month and i will still see the therapist twice a month. we talked a lot. i told him i could never find a treasure like him but i was tired and four or five hours for ten minutes was too much...he asked where i had planned to go. i said i didn't know but somewhere near me. i said i had called lenox hill but they hadn't called me back. he said for me to try it. he also repeated five times to get a dog to help get me back to exercise so i could build up some tolerance for walking. i think the visit lasted 1/2 hour. weird
one of the tests is definitely booked now for thursday. hooray
i feel strange. i also called up about a schnauzer and am waiting for an email for a picture. would need approval from the building to get one
bobby