my anger is coming out left and right. i don't know what to do and if it is healthy or not. at a lot of times I don't want to live. then at other times there are books i want to read and i want to play with my cats. my psychiatrist said it was important for me to have a routine but when i was working and had a routine i was still very depressed. i forgot to tell him that.
i just found out that my youngest nephew lives less than ten blocks away from me. he was never a high achiever because his two older brothers were super high achievers. they both went to harvard, learned japanese and even did some work in Japan. I think they are both easily millionaires. I just found out that the youngest went back to school and got his mba and is now a financial analyst and is on tv and highly quoted and is on his way to become a millionaire. when he was little he had an ant as a pet. his esteem was that low. then he said he was happy with the murder at jonestown when it happened. eeks
bobby