lol i really dunno where my head is any more. i keep spacing out and messing up little things. i am also getting like waking-dreams type things going on in my head... stuff from dreams or tv or memories replaying or playing into new scenarios... runaway trains... i am getting distracted left and right.

i have gobs of energy and very low appetite... i do get hungry but when i eat i am quickly sated. the reason for needing breaks is lack of fitness not fatigue. i don't feel "tired" ... incredible as it is. i am sleeping enough... sometimes. but my sleep is irregular.

i do get tired at the end of the day... wherever my circadian rhythm (which varies) establishes the end of my day as being... lol. but sometimes i wake up only a few hours later. so i have some days of pretty short sleep (4 hours). other days it's normal - 8ish. i wonder if it is a form of sleep deprivation... / REM deprivation... or perhaps i should say, if it is JUST sleep deprivation or if this is giving me a mood jab.

i am also boisterous hyper-reactive. loud, but in a goodnatured way... no irritability. that is GONE. (i can count my blessings in that regard.) am cracking jokes all the time too. i was pretty worried about my parents but am feeling pretty optimistic at the moment. (more blessings to be counted there! )

hmmm.... not sure what's going on!



~ waves ~