Dogovir, where are you?

Thanks for keeping up. I see my Pdoc Tues. He put me on effexor. I stopped taking it last Thurs. The depression was gone but my mind has been racing, teeth clenching...forgetting to breath....( my mania) So I guess it's ok to get me through a crisis.. but I can't do it long... I have even tried Sam-E in the past.. it manics me too. Still waiting to calm down...but better.

Tonight I increase my Lamictal to 200 (100 in the am, 100 in the pm so I don't wake up sooo "empty".. lately I have had to increas the clonidine from .1 to .2 or .3.... wired and not at all dull at those doses sooo manic I am. Lithium orotate I take 480 mg in the am and the same at night.
Right now I am having issues with my spouse. I cannot deal with his midlife issues AND keep myself together... ever feel like just running away for a spell?
Thanks all.. I will not be away so long now... you all are great. It was a rough few weeks and hard to explain to people who don't deal with it.
Peace~ Pam

thank you for checking in Pam.
your life sounds a bit much and overwhelming is there anyway to take a mental holiday....could you go stay with a family member? or friend?
bizi

Dear Pam,

'Sorry that you are going through this now.

I hope the increased Lamictal will help you.

As for your spouse, take a break. Tell them to give you lots of space right now while the med change is happening. Does that work? To agree to ignore each other?

M.

I am working on the leave me alone and go watch your tv thing. we will see. My grandkids were my lifeline, but he threw such a fit over the weekend about them being here so much I had to tell my daughter we had to cut back on the visits. They are usually here after school when I get home from work. Tonight they had already been picked up, the house was empty except for my dogs, I just cried. Life with just "him" is a depressing thought and then I feel bad for feeling that way.
Would love to get a cabin in Gattlinberg TN for a week alone....no work,no one to answer to, and just time to regroup....that would be heaven. Or a weekend in New orleans over MadiGras to just have fun....would love to have fun.. I don't get happy party mania, I get irritable stressed clench my teeth times...it stinks.
Ok enough of me complaining. thanks for the sugestions. I work an hour away from my home. My parents are closer, so on Tues nights I stay and visit with them. But a longer visit would not be restfull.. my mother thinks she still has to entertain or constantly engage in conversation....(cabin is sounding better and better)
Thanks again... Pam

uckies I hate effexor. Glad to hear the depression is gone.