Thank you bobby, The problem is that I am already at the highest dose of meds on these particular meds. So there really is not any lee way, other than a medication change, different meds which I am unwilling to try something new when I see this as behavioral.
Thank you isis yes I am aware of subtle changes but can get completely out of whack when I "decide" to do something really stupid like I did 18 months ago....make myself get off sleeping pills(ambien), make myself try to get back to a regular sleep cylce...I did not sleep really for 4 months and finally asked pdoc for some klonipin which did the trick. My mania turned into an awful dysphoria/mixed mood...it was terrible. I was so against getting back on a benzo but klonipin has fewer side effects than ambien so I felt better about that.

OK I just got off the phone with my pdocs office, left a message telling them that i was dealing with alittle hypomania and wanted them to know that....that I thought I was doing ok but wanted them to know about it.

bizi

Bizi

I see you doing some self evaluating. I am not sure its so bad a thing.
Yes you are worried because you have been enjoying yourself.

But I also think at times in our life's when these times are available
they are necessary.

One thing I would suggest you do is sit down. Figure out if maybe
you are trying to avoid doing something. Because in my opionion
a adolescent that starts overdueing things, and say doesn't do homework
is doing just that.

And its fixable.

I am proud of you to tell you the truth, you know its going on.

Donna

thank you Donna, that is sweet of you to say that.
bizi

It sounds like you have had some real fun,and maybe got a little carried away,and forgot about the person who you where talking to online. You are human,and are going to make mistakes.

Remember the good times that you have had. Don't be to hard on yourself. I apologize alot myself,because I feel these self condemnation guilts all of the time. I have a problem with false guilt. It sort of pops the bubble after you have had some fun.

The more fun that you have had,the more false guilt grips you later. It is a painful thing. BF

Dear Beth,

Do you have a tool box of calming techniques?
Get a massage? Do gardening? Spend time with the kitties?
Get extra sleep?
Things like that?

Mari

I am thankful for you guys...I really am fine...jsut was getting abit worked up...I feel more stable less impulsive, more grounded was able to get up and getting ready to go see clients today instead of jsut staying in bed like I wanted to do. so that is good....now to get off this computer so I won't miss her visit, she doesn't know that I am coming, altzheimers patient in a nursing home, very sweet lady. I have a lot of sweet ladies, grandparents I call them.
bizi

Good plan Bizi.

Donna

Beth, that sounds good.

barbara

Bizi That should bring fulfillment. Have some fun also,with out false guilt. BF

How do you work? I can barely keep it together at the Health Center where I am