The guy nicknamed Cocky that I went out with last December has been on my mind all weekend. I spoke with him many a time for about a month there inbetween Bobby and me. Cocky wanted to spend New Years Eve with me and was willing to help me move for nothing. He's fun and handsome and likes me I know. Just this weekend I've realized how much Cocky does like me compared to how Bobby liked me even when things were good for Bobby and I. With bobby it was a game with me wondering if he really liked me. I don't feel that way with Cocky. I can tell that Cocky likes me and wants to be with me looking back.

Once another online friend told me to let people fit me and not me fit them. Well, Cocky kind of fits me what I know of him so far. Cocky went too fast for me last year though and it scared me. What I didn't realize until recently was that he was trying to work with me and take his time back then but by then I was looking for him to take my mind off of Bobby and not really see what attracted me to Cocky to start off with. I wanted Cocky to be everything but a boyfriend.

Cocky likes to go to bars like I do unlike Bobby. Cocky and I are only about a year apart unlike the huge age difference in Bobby and I. Cocky and I like the same music. Cocky likes to be on the go with things I like to do also unlike Bobby did. Cocky works and loves to be with me alone unlike Bobby did. Even though Cocky and I only went out one time I know how much he likes to be with just me from all the times he's asked me to be with just him.

I never gave Cocky a chance and could not see how much more he's better for me than Bobby until I lost feeling for Bobby. And this is the 1st time just now writing this that I've compared the 2 but just am doing it to show you how far I've come in taking off the blinders. I guess though that I must have compared the two subconciously because I have been thinking about what is more normal in a relationship thinking about Cocky this past weekend. While I'm at it, Bobby is a ladies man which caused me great grief the whole time. Even though Cocky is hansome and fun he doesn't act like a ladies man. He seems more focused on one person which has been me.

Well, today I was finally able to talk with Cocky after trying all weekend with a wrong phone number. We are going to hook up near the end of the week. I'm so excited because for once in a long time I feel like I might have something more normal and someone who fits more me than anyone else has in ages.

Well this sounds like you are thinking about him.
This is good.
I am happy that you guys are going out soon.
Go slowly....time is your best friend.
Have fun!!!!
bizi
he better treat you well or we are going to have to come
to your rescue!

Dear Barbara,
Your friends talks good sense.

Even so, be careful. You have time.

M.

Thank you Beth and Mari. Yea Beth, I am thinking about Cocky which is good. Mari, I will try to take things slow with him.

barbara

Good luck Barbara! I am sure this will be a good friendship and maybe more for you. Just let things happen as they may and take your time and enjoy the journey.

Barb

I'm glad you are taking your time. Remember its on your side.

Donna

Thanks Donna. Time is on my side by the Rolling Stones. Gotta to have that song.

barbara