My hubby doesn't get it.
Even after all of these years of living with me...He can't tell when I am getting manic..I have to be the one calling my pdoc and taking extra geodon...my friends are calling to check on me and he asks why?
UGGG!!!!
so between myslef, my family that live 1000 miles away and my closest friends here (2 of them)...I rely on their input...not his.
I get really resentful about this....after 12 years...is he ever going to get it?
I try to explain that I am not well and he looks at me...I am working..I am not in bed...
He doesn't get the fact that I forget to do things follow thru due to my head in a spin.....I talk to strangers and embarress myslef....In the past I have "hit on" his best friend and his old boss..he doesn't remember this. Currently, I am having small incidents...accidently broke a glass, did not judge clearance, accidently hurt my finger slammed it in a closing suitcase, nice chunk out of that...almost getting into a car accident,...always thinking that I am forgetting something...cause I usually am...writing down apppointment times with out names...oh I hate that...impulsive...already buying bags of stuff for christmas for next year....on sale of course...I can rationalize any purchase...WE have lots of debt..hubby says ever body has debt..don't worry, ...when I hallucinated the other night and told hubby about he told me that he hallucinated one time before...he did not get that was a sign of mania( it had been 7 years since I had a hallucination)....I could go on and on....
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~sigh

bizi