Mari i don't know if it would be useful but when i am in better shape like tomorrow i will look for the link... i found that many radio stations "broadcast" via internet - i picked up a my old orlando stations one day, i was like, cool! i mean here i am in europe listening to central florida radio LOL. unfortunately my laptop does not have great audio and i hate being chained to it with earphones to hear music so it does not help me much, but maybe it can be of use to you. There is a page from which you can do a search for stations in your area/any area you choose.

~ waves ~

Dear Waves,

Thanks for the radio clue!

M.

Hi,

At the beginning of our meeting, I read the agenda I made.
Then I said that I had a stroke last summer and that was the reason I have trouble getting my words out. I also admitted to / apologized for one project last fall that did not go so well because of the stroke.

Silence for 2 seconds.

Then they started talking about other stuff.
Thank goodness that is over.
Today when I slid through some words or stumbled a little or searched for the name of an actor in conversation I did not feel uncomfortable. I did not feel the need to cover up.

M.

http://www.radio-locator.com/cgi-bin...ate=FL&x=0&y=0

put in any city/state or zip that you want

Mari

I can feel the relieve in your voice. And I hope your team can now
help you get through this. I think they will be very good at it.

I believe they had a clue before, and just couldn't bring it up.

Donna

I am sure you do feel relieved.
good for you...that was brave of you.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Mari
Well you let the cat out of the bag, how do you feel about that? Just like Donna said, I also think your team will be more willing to help you now. I also feel the stress of you thinking they were going to find out is now gone and that too will help you. This is just my opinion, I do not know your team or you, but this is what I would guess would be the outcome. Moving on. How are you sleeping? How are things going with the klonopins? Try to get better!! I wish you the very best!

collinsc

I know you felt weird about telling people for a long time so i figure this was a tough choice to make. But i'm so glad you chose to tell them. What a load off your mind.



~ waves ~

BRAVO...you are finally letting some armour down....why now? why not now? is this a new you? are you going to struggle less with your heavy burdens?
you offer so much....you don't have to overload the scale in others' favour.
bobby

Hi,

One team member is pre-occupied with cancer treatments that have ben ongoing since July 09. Only one probably noticed goofy things in my speech -- saying one word when I mean another close word, not having word recall, . . . the third knows that I have been struggling in a general sense but this has been a difficult work year for all of us.

My leadership keeps us together on the same path.
I'm proud of that. We accomplished a hugely important task yesterday. My people were amazing. My news of the stroke was small compared to the other stuff we had to cover. And my news was old news and not something we had to discuss. I'm glad for that.


(I had told a woman colleague back in October or so about the stroke and she was supportive in a general way. We have not talked about that since. I did not invite her to this recent meeting. I wanted the meeting to be very focused.)

When I came home from work yesterday and saw the news of Beau Biden's stroke I felt bad for him, but I also thought about other people like me who are of similar age to him who have strokes that docs can't explain. Likely, my colleagues saw the same news and saw that strokes can happen.

I guess I was thinking somehow that the stroke was my fault and did not want to talk about it.
Also my horrible parents and I have had exactly ONE conversation about this (one convo with Dad and a different convo with Mom). With both convos I reassured them that I was going to be ok.
Even when they came to seem me in Sept then refused to talk about it.
-->> Sometimes I hate them.

I was ashamed.
Better better now with time . . . .also with Beau Biden in the news.


M.