Here I go again, getting all hyped up about court. The date is Feb 21st, at 2pm.

Looks like he will be going to jail for sure, well we will see.

I was thinking for my own SELF PRESEVERATION to write a letter for the proscutor and the public defender, to ask for no jail, but to add to his probation AA, Therapy, Community Service, along with what he has already.

I am just so afraid that when he does get out, which wouldn't be that long, max is 6 mos, and he won't get that. He will be in more of a rage, plus then what happens to the DV intervention 36 class's he started? Plus he will lose his job, etc. He will be real mad at me. Because he blames me for everything and anything.

Then I feel like a jerk doing that, because he will think I am doing that for him.

Then I think, let fate take its course.

Maybe I should stop thinking, but my mind won't shut off.

Just Nikko - venting again with this getting real old SAGA.

Nikko

HUGS. Its just human to think, and worry. So you go right ahead.

WE aren't going to desert you. WE want to hear it. So keep it
going. WE will be here for you.

I have no way of helping you but I wish I did.

Donna

I have decided to let fate take it's course, or carma or whatever you call it.

I can't do anything for him anymore, this is something he has to deal with, not me. I'm done after I just make my appearence in court.

That is my final answer....ha

Hugs, Nikko

See my DV counsler on Wed. we already spoke on the phone about the things I was thinking of doing for my own self preseveration (safety).

I will be fine, got this far, right?

Dear Nikko,
You are holding together tough. I'm impressed.
Mari

Nikko,
These things have a system and plan that the court follows. It is really in their hands and up to the set standards to implement them. This si to protect women or victims. If they lower their standards what recourse would the next victim have.

It seems your ex has a problem following court orders; any orders! It does him no good to get a slap on the wrist or another break. How the court deals with offenders that don;t get it needs to be followed, for your safety and for him to get it to sink in. There are consquenses to things in life and who the heII does he think he is making his own rules.

There is a thing called Stockholm syndrome, don't sympathise with him over your own safety.
Di

I have to look up the Stockhom Syndrome now.

Maybe it will explain my situation and how I am feeling.

Hugs, nikko