OH Mari. I wish your helper was near by, same situation here. So much stuff, ie) junk to shred and unclutter my life.

Everyone sounds like they had interesting plans and experiences. Survived the unusual heat up here. It has been 98* and even 101* in the mountains.
During this time, I had a dumpster delivered to clean out De's trailer. Hoping for my son and grandson to move in. Really wanted a home on there for them. but we will make this work for now.

So extremly physically and mentally exhausting. I spend a lot of time crying over mementos and memories. I miss her sooooo much. I had some things I could keep, but need to dump the junk from my home that has collected too.
They did not get the need for me to keep her daybed, I am not sure even why I do. That is where I found her. Should I really do that? But how can I put such a part of her life in a dumpster?

I am so sore, every joint, muscle hurts and are in spasms. The plumbing was leaking, tore out old pipes, the rug had to come up and appliances out. My older son and I did this ourself.
It was so odd, I had opened a fanny bag, and in it was a good Seiko watch of mine. I think I left it with her in the hospital and it came home in that bag. Then I find Angels all over, ceramic ones, brass, dolls with wings, magnets, on toss pillows, on every shelf, hanging from curtains.....there are dozens? I never noticed before.

I feel crushed. It will be nice to have the grandson so close, but wish I could provide them better.

It feels so good to read the plans and hopes of everyone, Life does go on, everyday......
Me I need to clean to have a cleaning lady come, I have no help from the family here.......I only have days to keep the dumpster and so much I better get rid of.

Yada Yada Yada, just chatting out line, everyone have a good week.....:grouphug:

mu heart breaks for you.
I know tht your grieving your loss of her. All the pain jsut floods back when dealing with all of her things.
It has not been that long ago.
It is healing to cry for her.
I jsut hope that you are able to take care of yourself...don't work too hard, ask for help, sleep rest when you can.
All of this is emotional and physically draining.
You are doing well with this it sounds.
(((((HUGS))))
much love
bizi

Dear Di

sending you hugs :hug::hug: for this difficult time.

going through De's stuff must be heartwrenching for you.

my itty bitty thought here on the daybed is that it's COMPLETELY OK for you to keep that if you want to. it doesn't matter why, or even knowing why, or that people don't get it - they don't have to get it, you don't need anyone's permission for this. and there is no "should" or shouldn't about it. you clearly have a gut feeling about keeping it and that is all that counts, imho.

and wow that is hot. our temps are slightly lower but we have pretty high humidity so it feels nasty enough. went to a small mall today - ahhh airconditioning what a relief!!! ;)

i hope things work out for your son and grandson to move into the camper.

~ waves ~

Dear Di,
Your angel left her angels for you.
Keep the bed. I does not matter if you have a reason or not.
If you do not get everything completed in time for the dumpster to go, it will be ok.

Lots of hugs. :hug: :hug: :hug:
M.

Di
Sending good thoughts to you.

My mother also collects angels. I believe the day will come when I have
to figure out where all the angels that Derrick has given her will go.

Donna

Thank you all for the support. Even when I can't explain things you all make sense out of it.
My son really broke down crying that because of litigation my ex is causing I could not put the down payment on the home for him to put on the lot, that he will be living where she passed away.

I know how strong he is and hard it must be for him. He needs to think of the little guy, My grandson is my joy, and to have a safe home and so close by will be a blessing.

The heat in the mountains is so strange, we rarely get the high 80's or 90* plus. let alone 101*. Connor, Katie and I are enjoying the pool even if it is a small one. 4 ft deep and 16 across, put up in less then an hour, down the end of the season. All next week it will be 88* again.

I think I can use the day bed in the spare room that will be my office, and that way no one is sleeping in the bed all the time. If it is too difficult for the family, I can still keep it and not use it.....when I am gone they will do what they want wih all my "stuff." Can't take it with us.
All I could send with her was her teddy bear. jewlery and few pictures.
I want her back my buddy I miss so bad, and that scum bottom feeder thinks he hit a lottery with her loss.
How can people live their lives like such scum? How can the second wife stay with him he is so scum, bum.....
I need a ton of support and prayers these next few weeks. My family needs me to be stong for them...
I love you all dearly,
Di:grouphug:

Hey just a few months ago we had Feet of snow and 5* temps! :D
http://i114.photobucket.com/albums/n...11/snowpic.jpg

DiMarie

We will be here.

Please tell your son that he can make the trailer his. It will work just fine.

Weird as it can sound, he may decide he loves living in her place.

Donna:grouphug:

more hugs sent your way di
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi