I sent my Rehab. counselor a letter outlining some things about my Goodwill teacher that made me feel uncomfortable as a student. Such things as her saying, "now I've got reports to do, don't bother me." And then covering herself by saying, "you know I'm only kidding." I had asked my Rehab. counselor in the letter that I would like my transportation to be paid for to attend my abuse support groups so in turn I could better be able to know how to deal with school and such issues like my teacher that may arise in a job. His responses are to sit down with him, the teacher, and her supervisor and discuss the complaints I have with the the teacher. I told him I did not feel comfortable doing this and his response was that was where a mediator comes in giving me the impression it would be mediated. Last night I emailed him last night saying to please go into detail explaining what I could expect and was it standard protocol to go through what he is asking me to do. For one thing, he never answered my question on whether the Dept. of Rehab. would pay for my transportation to to my abuse support groups nor if the procedure of me confronting the teacher was standard protocol. Now his his saying not to expect him to convey my feelings to Goodwill. He just keeps repeating with every email he sends me, Send the letter to the teacher and her supervisor is the 1st step.

I do not like this at all and need to get some feed back from others. I for one do not like the idea of confronting the teacher when my gut instinct asks me what good will it do me? How is it going to help me deal with her? I have already complained to her last supervisor about her yelling at me and the teacher did not even remember it but still apologized for it. She still gave me a dirty look when someone else at her lunch table asked me to sit down the week before last. And if my Rehab. counselor doesn't plan on helping me convey how I feel what will his role be? I kind of feel since the Dept. of Rehab. contracts with Goodwill for their services that there is a little bias against how I feel. I feel like asking my Rehab. counselor for an outside mediator like from another agency, that has no connection between the both Goodwill and the Dept. of Rehab. as for as contracts. And what about me asking for transportion to my abuse support groups. After all, that is where my failure to deal stems from. I mean if my teacher has me walking on egg shells how is talking to her about it going to help. None of the people are psychologists or understand the implication it has on me.

Sorry to rant.

befuddled2