Hi, Bizi,
We posted at the same time.
Can you get a new therapist?

I like mine. She is always reminding me to cut myself more slack.

Mari

I also get ticked now when people who know me haven't learned to recognize the symptoms of bipolar in me and what is normal behavior. Ron is referring me as a non busy person since "i have so much time on my hands" I want to use a swear word beginning with f....There are so many things I want to do that I don't have the energy right now to do. Anxiety is also preventing me from doing things I should be doing. Even the medication can't stop the anger.
I could think the people were another swear word two syllables beginning with a -but I would really attack a supposedly educated person in the field.
and ask if the going was getting to rough...
Needed to vent

thank you but we are supposed to be talking about you
Bobby

Changing therapists....
 

I have been thinking about that...
she is having alot of personal issues, her S/O just passed away,,,cancer..terrible death, 80 pounds when he passed away....in her house after she has been taking care of him for years.
any way....
I should go to bed now...up too late.
thank you guys for being here and helping me to try to figure this out....
bizi:grouphug:

Bobby,
This situation of people (only Ron?) not allowing you to be bipolar is close to untolerable. I don't know if I would be able to deal with him.
You are amazing.

Also, I find it helpful when you talk about bipolar being a gift.
I suppose that that is similiar to what I used to say about trying to embrace bipolar and befriend it. Becuase you are right, we do have something to learn from it.

I'm going to head to bed.

Mari

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Originally Posted by mymorgy (Post 69018) I also get ticked now when people who know me haven't learned to recognize the symptoms of bipolar in me and what is normal behavior.

my hubby can't either...frustrating
bizi

I am starting to figure out that unless I recognise that I am bipolar and I am prone to panic, I will ignore the warnings my body is issueing and will end up worse off. There has to be intervention before the full blown swing reaches up or down. I see this with Wes too. If we can head off the mania in its first stages, we stay out of the hospital. If we don't..........

So I would say we have to know we are bipolar. We have to listen to our own bodies and take charge of our monster. By embracing who we are we have to accept the monster is part of us and tame it and teach it tricks to entertain us, to protect us.

But my name is not BiPolar. My soul is not BiPolar. I am Erin with all of her faults and all of her accomplishments and even all of my inner demons. Maybe that is part of the seperation? I don't think so. I think that is still acceptance of the disorder. Or as Bobby says, learning about our gift.

I think your therapist needs to give you more information in the way of what she means to teach you. I think your pdoc needs to be more specific when she throws out little bits of her mind at you. She is NOT bipolar. She doesn't KNOW how this feels. She can only see from the outside and read and study what is does.

If they are physically and mentally unable to do this for you, I would seriously consider changing docs.

I don't understand the therapist at all. IF we could separate ourselves from Bipolar, then wouldn't we all NOT be Bipolar?

Issues are things that everyone has to deal with BP or not BP.

Issues for BP people are sometimes much more difficult to deal with.

DITTO....on a new therapist.

Hugs, Nikko:hug:

Thank you Bear.
This is such a sweet testament.
I have been really trying hard to keep a handle on this, this time...
are they expecting that I never have any more hypomanias?
Is that the goal here?
I think that is unrealistic...that is part of the disorder...I am bipolar 1.
For the past month I have been taking a lot of geodon right now and I am still hypo manic....have been for a while.

Thank you nikko for your words as well...and Mari and bobby for helping me last night.

bizi

In the end everyone is his or her own doctor of last resort. I think the whole field of mental health needs an overhaul, but that's just one guy's opinion. A lot of other things would have to change too. I liked the comment about the "divine gift that brings us closer."