Dear Kay,
It's fun to read about your shopping finds.
M.

i find myself longing for a quilt.

it sounds all squooshy and cozy and homey and comfy and just wonderful.

~ waves ~

Mari, I'm definitely a clearance queen! I do a lot of shopping online. I prefer to do it that way for a lot of reasons. I get a lot of great deals, but wouldn't go that route when buying a quilt because I need to feel stuff like that.

Waves, quilts are wonderful! Just make sure you get a good one. 100% cotton throughout with nice strong stitching. You'll love it!

-Kay

I love the mattress!!! So does my husband!

I have started having some significant breakthrough pain despite the tramadol. I'm going to stick it out, though. The pain is mainly tolerable.

Still having the fevers.

I've pierced a couple of things in the last couple of weeks: I already had 2 studs in each earlobe but just pierced my cartilage on both sides as well; also had my nose done a few weeks ago. My belly ring was done years ago.
I already have 3 tattoos (including a Celtic knot necklace). If I had more $$$ I'd probably be getting tattooed right now.
I have an appt. with my psychologist Thursday... maybe she can tell me what all that is a sign of?

Very tired today & my pain is bad. I'm going to lay down now.

-Kay

I am glad that the matresss is working out for you.
naybe there are too many things that are out of your control so maybe the piercings are your way of taking control of your body????
rest when you can.
bizi

I agree the piercing is what you can control.

Donna

Bizi and Donna,

I think you're right on the money.

I was aware that I was taking control over my body when I did the mega neck tattoo. I love it and still feel empowered when I look in the mirror. Funny that didn't occur to me regarding the piercing?

I guess my appointment with the psychologist is today. We'll toss this all around a bit. I really don't have a lot of control over things, especially my body. Maybe I need to address those frustrations before I run out of places to pierce.

Thanks,
Kay

Dear Kay

i am glad you are figuring things out re the piercing/control. that does make sense to me also. i hope your psychologist can help you with further insight and other ways to cope. let us know how the appointment goes.

i am sorry you are having so much pain again in spite of the tramadol.



~ waves ~

I had some trouble trying to vote in the primaries yesterday, so I kinda had my Irish up when I got to the psychologist's office...

We did discuss the piercings and lack of control. First I was angry thinking about how my life has changed due to the MS. Then I cried about all the things it has taken away from me: my career and the ability to return to work, my mind, my mobility, deciding not to have children...

I really can't get into anything indepth right now. I don't want to cry. I have to drive myself to Boston because my father bailed on me (I'm not surprised).

Thanks guys,
Kay

gosh kay that was alot of things to get into.
no wonder you are feeling sad about your losses.
jsut the loss of not having children is enough and a biggie...emotional battle for acceptance.
good luck in your drive to boston I wish you did not have to go alone.
((((HUGS))))
bizi