Hi,
Here we are again upon another weekend. I have no plans, broke, but I really need time to decompress and try to get my head together about everything if that is even possible at this point.

LOSS has hit me hard, along with illness of my mom the last year, now financial issues, and more physical and mental pain.

So, my Vet said (he is a house call VET) he is so nice, he used to work at a animal hospital, then ventured out on his own. He knows everything that has happened from my mom's year illness, my husband, and of course Savannah. He said to take time to GRIEVE. He said taking walks would be good too, alone or with the dogs. He is in his 40's and a very sympathic, understanding guy. He is happily married to a woman from India that is a pediatric neurologist. No kids, just dogsssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

I think I will take his advice. I really don't feel like socializing at the pool, although being with people he said is good too, to talk and get my feelings out, but I always end up crying and feel like a fool. I am very emotional and always have been. My mom said when I was a kid, I cried when Lassie was lost.

So, what's up for everyone? Check in........................Hugs, Nikko

Bumping the weekend check in for everyone...............

that's so sweet that you cried when lassie got lost...

here it is actually 3.45 on saturday. i'm always late. and no i'm not done cleaning yettt!!! but i don't DARE do any more or i figure some neighbor's really gonna come here and strangle me. so alarm set for 8.45, parents calling at 9... hopefully i'll wake up... i sleep ok once i get to sleep, but i have a hard time getting up.

Nikko have you spoken to your doc about modifying your sleep meds? Falling asleep and staying asleep are two separate problems. Lunesta can "cover both bases" - but the effect is dose dependent (i seem to recall you are taking L or is my brain screwed on crooked?) i have 2 meds i can use either or both, as needed. one is ambien, the other is a sedative/hypnotic whose effect lasts longer than ambien. you surely have something similar. there is flurazepam, but it may not be readily prescribed there, since it does build up some - it doesn't wash out in 24 hours.

i hope you manage to have a good weekend. Your Vet sounds like a wonderful Person. with good advice.

ok now its 4.09 - hey that was a cleaning product back in the 80's wasn't it? argghh! OH HECK I FORGOT AALLL MY MEDS TODAY. ack! bye!

~ waves ~ from across the ocean

Not sure what I am going to do this weekend.....I made it to exercise class every day this week...so am pretty proud of that fact.
although I am not happy that I had 2 margaritas and 3 peices of pizza...ugh!
I need to drink more water!!!!!!
have a great weekend...try to rest and rejuvinate if you can...
be safe in your packings and movings and cleanings....
bizi

Saturday morning, up at 5am, having iced coffee with my 2 dogs, just thinking, have a dull headache and neck ache. Maybe I will take my pain med and try to go back to sleep. I only have to go out once today, it will only take me 10 min. no big deal.

I posted all about the correspondence between my FIL and me. That was upsetting to wake up to.

Starting my life over, that's what it will all be about soon enough, I just don't know how to do that. My life consists of many appointments, taking care of my mom, the house, laundry, my pets, tv. I always feel so awful, I just want to sleep and cry.

The weather here is still great, high 80's low 90's. At least the sun shines everyday, so it could be worse. Although I am not taking advantage of the nice weather.

I have to stop venting so much, it is tiring to listen to, huh? Complain, complain, complain. I can't help it. This too shall pass, not soon enough.

Have a good weekend, enjoy....................Hugs, Nikko

HI!

Nikko, Waves, Mari, Bobbi; oh ouch. My heart is with you. Hang on, hang on, hang on.

Hi all. I am putting a new computer together for work and came here to see you all first. I have to research how to get my Gigabyte mother board to see my SATA hard drives we are setting in a RAID 0. Confused? Yeah, so am I.

I am also getting ready to get on my neighbors' roof and help re-shingle. Dread. I hate heights. Very phobic. I am just a little nausious. But they are my best friends and I will do it for them.

Been busy. Kids have had a little more trauma than usual but hopefully we are over the hump and are heading toward the good side. It's been pretty evil and REALLY stressful. But we are ok.


Good things have made all the scary bad things tollerable to have to go through.

I so love my husband and the kids have started calling him Dad. Which is so funny because we have been together so long. Marriage does change things. But so far, in this house, things are only getting better.