Trigger:


I feel like my body will collapse from pure exhaustion from not enough sleep from too much worrying about all my stress of recent past. I cannot sleep so I took some Klnopin to see if that will help. I hate my life. I wish I could just forget Goodwill and my Rehab. counselor. I wish my brothers and other family members would realize just because I am bi-polar does not mean I don't have feelings. I know that statement doesn't make sense but my family has always had the attitude that if I show any feelings, it is because I am sick and they green warrent me or take me to the hospital. It seems even the County Mental Health clinic i once went to felt the same way and it appears so does my Rehab. counselor. As my shrink, I can't spell psychiatrist, describes it, people tend to treat people with a mental illness as 2nd class citizens when we are not.

Well, the Klnopin is calming me down some or just writing and getting it out is helping.

befuddled2