I can't do this anymore
 

Hubby. Work. No Sleep.

The trifecta.

My heart / chest has been racing since the afternoon even with my correct amount of Klonopin.

I don't see how I can go to work tomorrow. It would reflect poorly on me if I completely fell apart or freaked out and caused a scene in the middle of the day.


I'm lost. I really don't want to deal with this anymore. I want to go somewhere else. Some where far away safe where I can be left alone.
M.

We had a talk
 

I woke up early this morning.
I told him to change his behavior or go to a dr for medication.
He says he is going to change.


I have to work today but I have only slept 2.5 hours and my face is red from crying. I don't know if I can go to work and if I can, I don't know if I should. Works reaaaaaaaaaally stinks. I need sleep.

i am so sorry you are going through this...life can be so bad at times
bobby

Mari

Thinking of you. Sending love and prayers.
Donna:grouphug:

i am sorry that it all seems to be hitting you all at once.
could you ask him to go with you yo see your therapist like you did before? get him on the same page?
((((((hugs)))))
bizi

Bizi makes a good point, he needs to go with you to see tdoc and LISTEN and change, he's not helping you in the right way and surely he wants to be helpful, so that's what I'd do. ASK him to come with you. That was a long time ago, and so much has happened since then I bet this would help him make the changes you need for things to work smoother. I hope you feel better Mari, I know sleeping isn't easy for you, but with med hiccups that must make the problem of resting harder. Thinking of you...

Dear Mari

i hate that you are going through such pain.

i got hubby and sleep problems but lost on "the trifecta" (did i miss a post)?

totally get the not knowing if can handle work and feeling stuck between a should go but also should avoid breaking down there.

heck.
i remember you didn't like joint counseling for you guys. i hope you can get across for him that, to help you, he is going to need it ie get it on his own.

what if you didn't "move" but rented a hotel room to crash at from time to time. that's kinda what i was thinking when i suggested a "temporary" place for one of you. is that it could be transient also. too, there are "business residence places that might rent weekly. they would be expensive but might have better amenities as geared towards business people needing temporary but "complete" lodging, as opposed to a Ramada inn where you're lucky if there's a coffee maker in the room.

sending you positive vibes and keeping you close to my heart

~ waves ~

i would not try to be rational with your husband. i think it takes too much out of you. I would cry your heart out and force him into a position where he has to take action instead of your being the sane one in the family. You are under way too much stress and I don't know how you can bear it.
fondly
bobby

I can almost see you with only 2.5 hours of sleep, your eyes still red from crying, and having to head out to work...
:hug::hug::hug:Mari:hug::hug::hug:

this really struck me... as good advice. hard to reason when overwhelmed. let him see torrents of tears from your eyes then he will know how horrible you feel.
hugs to you.
i hope you can manage work some how - or manage to stay away from it and book yourself in a bset western or something.