glad to hear your netbook not pronounced dead yet!!!

you know there are companies specialized in data retrieval servcies... reading things off bad drives... tape... different media... damaaged media... partial media. so hang in there - i got my whole hard drive back one time.

i hope it is the same good news waiting for you around the corner.

you are a gentle person, pam, and reactive/vulnerable, like me.

we both react strongly and jangle bad when these things happen. it's not just a momentary hassle it feels deep. it is like being on tram and a kid runs in the road so he breaks hard and you're thrown. but it plays out in the emotional dimension too, doesn't it. being thrown.

no lorazepam for me today but its been supplanted with something better no pun in tended.

~ waves ~ sending hugggggggggggggs

She works on the weekends now so no, we don't get together nearly as often and I miss it.

I am really just tired of the fight to maintain stability, last night I lost it and cried and cried, today the kid is all smiles and laughing, I think he knows what he did and just couldn't care, that hurts. I really am frustrated. I have to save up to get this screen if I sent it back to Dell they would charge me so much I might as well buy a new one....*Sigh*

Thanks again for caring. I don't care about the data, it's all backed up on an external drive so that's cool, its that I have to be inconvienenced by not having my machine for as long as this will take and NO guarantee that after replacing the screen that it WILL even BOOT up. I am just sick over this whole episode. I wish I could sleep and wake up to having my computer be all right, but that's not gonna happen. So disappointed.

dear pam could jackie be competing with the netbook for your attention? he fixed things up good for a while it seems.... :rollyes:



~ waves ~

No he was fully engaged with the computer (desktop) and just wanted me to watch him act out like he was punching a person and I was in the midst of correcting him when it all went wrong. I don't always go on it, only when he's in front of my computer so we were online together in a way. Always near, he would get up and hug me or get a high five, he always comes first....

I am sorry that you don't get to spend time with your mom....i know how much you enjoyed your saturdays.
sorry about your computer....
do you think jackie comprehends...how his behavior effects you. isn't he limited in his reasoning abilities? how old is he again and how old does he act?Is he going to be like this or will he mature? you can private message me if you would rather.
I am sorry you have all of the challenges you do, you are allowed to cry...I hope it helped to relieve some of your feelings....
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I almost cried again tonight, it's just so sad seeing it lying in its blue case and remembering how excited I've been about owning my own computer. It does help I think to cry because holding it in is just impossible. Jackie is 14 going on 4 IMO, I don't think he's able to reason well enough to understand how his actions affect me unfortunately, but he sure knew today when I went OUT ALONE and he had to stay in with Dad that he was being affected by the CONSEQUENCE of that action last night.

I just can't imagine why he did it. Other then the acting out the stupid show, he is quick to emulate violence and it's really hard to regulate his TV watching habits, just today Spongebob had a Gold's Gym type fish punch another fish for what he thought was him whistling at his girlfriend.

*Sigh*

The only safe shows are Veggie Tales, The Berenstien Bears and Blues Clues....Others exist but he doesn't like them. I am so disappointed. Now I just have to hope Jack can fix it with a full LCD replacement and NOT BREAK anything in the process. He's built tower systems before but never touched a laptop. I have to save up for it too, it's almost 90 bucks for the screen and shipping.

BUT IF it works it will be higher resolution on it, 720p HD. So that's good, I just hope I can stand to see him going through the motions, the anxiety of it all is just eating away at me pretty badly already. I HATE that I feel such nervousness about that and so many other things. It's really hard to live in fear, but then many of you all know and can understand that from first hand experience.


ETA: It works still! We just hooked it up to an external monitor and it booted! So we're definitely going to swap out the bad screen for a new one and I should be in business again. I just hope Jackie doesn't do it again, with him not watching that show anymore I hope that's enough. I can't tell you how RELIEVED I am that the hard drive seems to be okay and that it booted. SO RELIEVED....

is is good news!!!!!!
thanks for sharing.
bizi

Thanks Bizi! I knew you'd all want to know that the test we ran proved it wasn't as badly damaged as I had first thought, still not dancing for joy just yet, still gotta manage to get its new screen installed and we'll probably order it next week sometime. That news definitely put my in better spirits.

Oh Pam, I'm sorry you've been so sad! You seem like such a loving and understanding mom. It must be hard at times because of the challenges you face. You are a strong woman.
It's good to cry sometimes. It's a good release.

So glad to hear that the netbook isn't DOA! I hope that the screen comes soon and it's up and running as good as new!

Dear Pam,
I hope that things work out for you.
M.