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If you hadn't posted it bobby, I would have, someone had to mention it. :( I am worried about you waves, I hope you're able to get it under control, NO job is worth doing that to yourself. This was the first mention I've seen of the daytime drinking, but I know that must have taken a LOT of courage on your part to own up to, so you do acknowledge that there is a problem, just know that we LOVE YOU and want the best for you so please keep us posted and please talk to pdoc about it, this comes from love and I hope you don't get angry about bobby and I posting about it. She and I are just afraid you're getting into trouble with it. :grouphug:

hi
i am not frank about alcohol to my parents - it worries them, but i answer direct questions truthfully, and sometimes drink at home.

i do not like to talk about it on forum but occasional mentions keeps the picture straight for you guys. thanks for cautioning me... but also don't worry....

pdoc knows all the gory details.

~ waves ~

know that we love you and are just concerned.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

Okay that's all I needed to know waves, thank you for your candid honesty. I still am worried though about this job situation, I hope you're able to score a teaching gig soon. :D Big hugs to you waves!~ :grouphug:

pdoc agreed about the increase in depakote from 1000 to 1200, and says to go up again to 1500 on wednesday.

if that doesn't settle things i might try a lithium + depakote balanced. have to ask him about that. lithium has worked before in combination.

but i won't do lithium if they won't draw labs regularly and the stupid state has stuid laws about stupid (in)frequency for that stuff.

but it sure seems like a lot of stufff!!!! :(:( i've never been at 1200mg depakote before let alone 1500!!! :eek::eek:

~ waves ~

Dear Waves,
Take the Depokote as he suggests. We want you well.
Two days of the raised dose this weekend will be good for you.

How about more of the benzo? Esp. for the am when you seem to be most wired up about the boss? Actually, I wonder if I am right? Are you more likely to have bad encounters with him in the am or pm. Or maybe take the short acting benzo just before lunch. (Anyway, you can figure out the timing --- I'm throwing that out there to remind you of your med options.

Be well. :hug: :hug: :hug:
Be safe. :) :confused: :hug:

M.

I'm thinking of you Waves... :hug:

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Originally Posted by waves (Post 754190)

i feel relieved
love
bobby

can't change others

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Originally Posted by waves (Post 753231)

i don'tknow what's goign to happen
bt the other girl called the consultant boss coz yeasterdy my boss and i got into it again and i - having learned that sticking to guns can be key, have doen so... well but it degraded when i did not realize and suddenly he was being aggressive about the software deadline again like implications on my duties etc and i try to keep il lokey with replies like 'well i'm working on your stuff here, i'm not sitting here watching tv' but

afterthe fight

i was shaking from top to bottom.
i put my hands on the desk to stop from being ovious
could not think
furious

i spare you all the inbetweens and the amount of drugs and alcohol i've put down - mostly benzos and alkie in combo at times.

today i was barely past catatonic getting to work. my sleep med makes me feel peaceful , but this morning, i had sobs in my breath.

they "talked to me" today....................

they are going to "talk to my boss" tomorrow................

i actually thought about having a "heart-to-heart" with my boss................... may be risky. but also feels "honest."

i dunno. blatant honesty when not required has gotten me fired in teh past.

I'm new here, so I don't know if I should be giving any kind of advice to anyone, but I'm just sharing.
One thing I've learned is that you can't change how other people act, only how you react to them. If you have a medical condition, medical or mental that you are getting treatment for, and it affects your mood, then in most cases you should be all right as long as you let HR know you are in treatment for your disorder and it has ramifications to your mood, or the meds do. Of course, this depends on the size of the company as small companies are exempt from some of the rules that apply to larger ones.
I've found that when I was working, saying that "yes, I'm working on this, this, and that, which would you prefer me to prioritize first" may help. Also, the deep breathing also helps but I don't know how it would affect you.

hi steve,
welcome.
does your ambien help with your insomnia?

bizi