Hi everyone. I hope you don't mind me skooching in here.
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 10 years ago. I will give more details eventually, but I am so derpressed I can't think of the details.
My depression usually comes on by itself and goes away when it wants to go away, but this time it was trigered by my rotten mean sister. she has in her head that she is going to call cps on me. she is older than me and has never been married or had kids...she is 42...still time to do those things of course, but the thinks she will never meeet anyone. Anyway, I think she is upset that she didn't do the marrying and having kids thing before me...not my prob...there was an incident this past thanksgivin (please forgive my misspellings and typos..i don't have the brainpower to fix it) ...anyway....my husband yelled pretty loudly at my 4 yedar old, both our kids belong 2 both of us. marcie didn't like it because the 4 year old is her favorite. he is 5 now. whatever...the next day she said she was going to call child protective services on us if we didn't go get parenting classes. like that is her business...he yelled at him! that's all!!! so anyway, i stopped speaking to her(and went to parenting clases ). while i wasn't speaking to her she said mean things about me to our other sister and my mom...she had no idea whyi was mad at her and the other sister told her that it's because she threatened me and M said "she should feel threatened!!!" and other stuff ....she said it would be child abuse if i kept my 2 sons away from her.
there is more stuff...i felt sorry for her so i started talking to her again about 2 weeks ago. i didn't find out about this above bull till yesterday.
anyway...i am obsessed with thinking about it and about a mean email that i want to write.
i guess that is all. i hope i wasnt too confusing.
I reread this and it sounds so stupid and childish. prob is, that i get crazy when something like this happens....i think about suicide...i fantasize about how i will do it. i know it seems like nothing, but it is huge to me. i feel like i need to tell her to f-off, but the she will say really horrible things and make me madder. i am so scared of how i will feel tomorrow. i cant stand thiw feeling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! help!

Hi,
Welcome.
It was not confusing, but I can't write much tonight.

I don't think that your sister is a helpful part of your life right now.

Do you have a therapist? A therapist can help you learn to cope better with family stuff like that.

I hope that tomorrow is better for you.
Mari

Thank you so much for your response...I feel so alone. I feel like I am crazy in the head. I feel better today so far, but it looks rainy, so the depression will strangle me.
I have a psychologist and a psychiatrist. I am on 6 medications.

hi
i think you need a buffer between you and your sister. it sounds as if she means well but her presentation stinks big time. nobody likes to feel threatened bipolar or not. did you get anything out of the parenting class or was it a waste? we as bipolars have a lot of triggers and your sister sounds like a big one. I didn't get along with my sister for most of our lives and then when i got to be in my sixties yes sixties, i had a strong need to have a sister and i called her up crying. She can't deal with my bipolar and didn't know i was bipolar. Now she is finally a fair weather sister. I am coming from that direction. I cut her off for so many years. It never worked. i don't know if that helps or not.
a lot of us think of suicide at times but we know the feelings pass and eventually we feel better and you have your two little ones who you don't want to leave that legacy to. it is better to seek all the help and support you can get. this forum is great. you can vent and vent and ask for help and don't have to worry if you are not able to help others. a therapist, the right therapist, can really help.. i don't know if you are on medications. they don't solve the problems but they lessen the symptoms.
glad you joined the forum
bobby
we cross posted. i wonder if your psychologist is adequate

welcome to our forums! jsut wanted to say hi.
have to get to work.
(((HUGS)))
bizi

Welcome to the forum. Let me think on this for a while. I have three
sisters. And even though only one didn't have children till recently it wasn't
because of the same reason's as your sister. But she would never have
tried to tell me how to raise my sons.

But I too wonder did you get anything out of the parenting classes. The main reason I personally ask is I've taken more than one kind. And enjoyed some of them. And nota enjoyed others. So if you don't feel like you did
try another class.

Also I would like to suggest that you have your sister who has unrealistic
ideas about parenting go to some classes with you. Because if she thinks
that its not possible to yell at times at children then I believe she might
be in for a surprise. Just like adults children at times get under our skins.

I know my now 4 1/2 year old grandson, is very hyper, and other things. I
try very hard to understand that he is delayed. And has problems, but there
are times I yell at him too.

THen there are his three sisters, who have some learning problems, but you will find me frustrated with either life, or something else. And yes, I can yell
at them too.

Donna

Hi Cblue. Welcome!

I'm sorry about the difficulties with your sister. It sounds like she may have some issues of her own...
I think the majority of parents yell at their kids at some point (more like points). It's ridiculous that your own sister would threaten to report you for that. I wonder if CPS would laugh at her when she called?

I often get urges to write nasty replies via email. Once you hit send, you can't any of those words back, and time usually mellows me a little, so I end up feeling bad.
You may want to keep her at a safe distance for a little while because she's triggered some s/s thoughts.

I hope that you are safe now, and your shrink and/or therapist have come up with a plan to deal with moderate to intense s/s urges.

Thank you for posting! You're not alone.

Kay

Hi everyone...I have been a mess today. I let my sister know that I think we shouldn't talk for a while. I can't ... it is too damaging. She really dislikes me. I get along with my other 2 sisters and 2 brothers...I don't get it. I know I shouldn't care if she dislikes me or not, but it stings like a thousand bees when she says terrible things. I was supposed to buy her car from her. She lives in NYC and i live an 2 hours away. i told her i would meet her 1/2 way to test drive it...i had back surgery about 8 weeks ago so i can not drive too far....anyway...she got mad and told me that either i buy it or i don't...she doesn't have time to let me test drive it. Um...is she serious????
Yes, i understand that the answer is to stop talking to her....done...I am just trying to get through all the mental craziness that this has all caused.
Thank you guys so much for listening. You all have really good advise. I am thankful that I found a place that I can be given advise, and maybe give some advise to someone in need.
Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You know I would take the car thing as a omen that it wasn't meant
for you.

Donna

I agree...i would forget the car....it would just be another trigger and what if problems occurred once you got it
bobby