Hi Donna and Di and thank you both.

this morning i had a migraine and anxiety. duh what a surpirse. decided to go in late after things abated. it got very late.

I thought about what i did that first ran amuck, and am convinced it could not have caused any damage at all to the data, so i don't feel that sense of responsibility to show up today to at least be party to fixing things.

also the witchcoordinator is coming today or tomorrow (for a bug-review session). i wanted to avoid a blended showdown of everything with her involved.

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i just CALLED my boss. said my migraine is still going (true) and the meds stopped working so i would stay home today.

then i asked him about friday's incident, and whether the DB was ok. he said it was fine. i said ok, i guess i just need to learn to do certain things a certain way, huh, and he said, oh, nothing happened. Don't worrry, nothing happened, and chuckled.

so he is calling it water under the bridge. i am relieved - means i don't have to deal with him about it, in person.

but there is no mistaking this for kindness. more likely, nothing about the incident impacts him any more, so he can't be bothered about it now.

i do feel a little less terror about work tomorrow after having broached the subject with him. BUT. it is not like nothing happned, not to me. and i can't deal with these 'nothings' that happen and they do happen, and i still have to deal.

right now i am a mess and still taking migraine pills and lorazepam today.

~ waves ~ taking the day off.