Favortism and judgement is all what happens to me at work. My boss is willing to teach others but not me. It hurts because everytime I ask if I can learn something its like I am a burden. Then he is like forget it I will just do it myself. It hurts so much I been crying for two nights straight because of this.
He complains about how slow I am and how I get too distracted. I take ritalin only for him and I am seriously about to pop two doses without confirming with pdoc first! Make myself faster that way!!!! I push myself and push myself and no matter what I just am not good enough. But nothing I seem to do is ever good or right in his eyes. Work very very hard apparently nothing I do is good enough.

I am so miserable I cannot stop crying at all and hubby is not home. It hurts really bad I hate being alone and being me. Wish there was a stop crying pill I can take.

Yellowfever

Dear Sharla,

This sounds awful. 'Sorry that you are going through this.
Do you have to be at work tomorrow?

M.

dear sharla,
where have you been?
we missed you.
I am sorry that you have been crying...when is your hubby due home?
I don't do well if mine is out of town...will he be gone long?
Please don't go up on your ritalin that will not help things. I am sorry taht your boss is being insensitive...could you ask to have a meeting with him to discuss your concerns? with possibly some other higher up there if possible.
thnak you for posting, keep posting we are here.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Yes but with only with the assistant manager. He sees what I do. And sees how hard I work. And today after coming to work crying from 10 am to 2pm. I start work at 2. He gave me a project that made me feel better about myself. But I went home feeling like a loser still and crying more.

I don't understand why he can make me cry so easily and for a long time. Already hours of crying.

I don't remember if you have a therapist....you are sounding very vulnerable and easily hurt. I am glad that you felt better today with the assignment. Only you can control how you feel, maybe you are taking others actions personally...anyway to distance yourself from them. ARe you able to take a day off, call in sick?
bizi
maybe your meds are not right? are you taking a mood stabilizer? to help evenout your moods?

I am seeing a therapist. And a pdoc. I am on lamictal 150mg and 20mg ritalin. Ritalin is for work only. The pdoc and therapist has helped me a lot so far. I called and left a message on the machine today to let them know I need a higher dose of ritalin because I suck at life. I asked them to call me back so I can start taking it double the ammount so I can be an acceptable worker.
I will find out tommorow what they can do. I work at 6pm tommorow and close at 9pm with the assistant manager. That is fine because he is accepts me. He said he wants me to quit taking ritalin. He said he hates me on it because it makes me into someone else and not the real Sharla.
The manager said he hates it too but now I have to take it because he picks on me. And he has no faith in what I do. So he doesn't bother with me.

Dear Sharla,

Lean on your tdoc and pdoc so they can help you.

Maybe more ritalin is not the answer. Maybe ritalin is making you agitated.


M

Dear Sharla,
He's a jerk.
You are a winner to me!

I hope you get some good sleep tonight. Sleeping makes a huge difference for me.

M.

Sharla

For one thing I would get into your primary as soon as possible.

I believe you need a different ADHD medication. Than ritalin.

Not sure how much you take. But its possible that this is not working
for you anymore. I have three son's and with two of them after
a few years of taking it. It stopped working.

They had to go on adderall.


Also you might if you are taking a generic for it. That might be your problem
too.

Please keep posting to us. We want to listen.

Donna

I took aderal before in middle school but I had to stop it because I could not handle the dry mouth and my chest pounding. I take either methelin or ritalin. The pharmacist make it sound like there is no difference so it really doesn't matter so they say.

Perhaps I can try aderal again when I am done with the ritalin. I just bought this months prescriptions.

Thank you D!

Sharla
I am starting to calm down now.