i hope you have a wonderful vacation. remember to take some deep breaths.
maybe they are not bad omens but an opportunity to feel anxiety now rather than once you depart on your trip. you said they all worked out. probably your trip will be clear sailing. you deserve to have some fun!
love you
bobby

well that is stressful.
take deep breaths, try to get some breathing room. ask for help if possible.
have a nice vacation! I hope you don't lose your luggage.
bizi

Dear Waves,

The trip is back on! And you got a lot settled.
I hope your preparations get completed enough so you feel ok.
Take deep breaths.


M

If you weren't already bipolar, I think you would live your way into being so.
You must have a tiny sense of how things like universes being born feel...
or a black hole collapsing.



Love you ~ waves~ Vacation like only you can. ((()))

thanks everyone.

i got my menses - and another migraine i had to nurse today. better than wednesday. so thank goodness!!!!

i had missed a gabapentin dose past two days, and today took all four... tween that and the indomethacin i was worse than drunk.

also the gabapentin gives me increased light sensitivity, especially during titration but it never totally wears off. depakote also during an increase. i think the gabapentin with this dose of Depakote are two much, but i need those doses for each to work. for now i will have to rely on shades and hats. can't afford migraines with work later, can't afford mania on vacation.

i had to lie down flat with a black sock on the eyes and earplugs finally - yes got hit with phonophobia too and nausea... it was after dinner and i fell asleep. i only menat to lie down for 5 or so mins to kill the senory stimuli TOTALLY for a while... woke up coz i got cold... 3 hours later - 11 pm... med and bed time. i am pretty awake and it's cooler now. i got a few things sorted.

i still have to photocopy my documents. also i have to go into the garage AND the cellar for some things. my dad promised to come with me as he knows the garage makes me nervous.

i cried tonight between one thing and another not the least of which being forced to live with lights that are either just too plain bright for bed-time, or are "desk-lamps" - emiitting too much blue-green... my parents (mother) has not been receptive AT ALL. they both like white lights. i have brown shades on. finally when dad got the in-tears version tonight, he promised to help me find the two a-bas-jours i used when i lived alone, and bring one up when we go down to the cellar/garage tomorrow. i can scoot my desk lamp over more for the plants.... they like that light - perk right up.

sorry i am a stick in the mud. at least i know for sure i am not manic. i am not even hypo. i am not even close. i feel really down. i do believe it is hormonal and self-limiting to a couple of days.



~ waves ~

Dear waves,
I am sorry that you are suffering with a migraine and that time of the month and stress of traveling soon. hopefully you will get the different light thingy for your area and your dad will help you find it and bring it up for you with out incident.
WE are here to support you....
I hope your mood improves with some time....When are you leaving?
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Good Luck Waves.

Donna

Dear Waves,

You got hit hard. I hope you feel better soon.

Your father is listening to you and helping you with the documents and lamps. You will feel more sorted when you have those things out of the way.
Have some restful sleep.

M

Thank you all, again...

Bizi, the flight is Wednesday afternoon at two - same as I would have taken today, but 2 days later. i have to leave around 11 am to get to the airport, navigate traffic (taxi), find the counters, bustle through the bodies all exiting the country en-masse, find my airline and check in on time.

i feel bad for ppl who visit where i live this time of year. nothing works. bars/cafe's are shut down, along with many pharmacies ... and few realize you can't get so much as baby aspirin at the grocery store... it's easier to buy cigarettes or booze. many shops and restaurants are shut too.... oh what fun.

plus the transports are on extra-extra-reduced schedules... which means long waits and hours to get from point A to point B, mostly waiting in the heat (running 90's and muggy).

where i am going is apparently more touristy and my company has not reported incidents wiht things being shut but rather things seem to be quite lively.

i have pulled out a superset of clothes to pack. now i need to "edit it down." i am a bit upset because i forgot to get my only pair of black shoes repaired, and they are too broken to have done in an hour or i'd take with. they were also comfortable and would have allowed walking. i am at a loss for evening shoes to go with black clothes - and that i can wear every night without blisters.

tomorrow i finalize the baggage. i hope i see the end of the menstrual migraines too, pita on a plane i should think.

again thanks to all of you dear folks. i keep coming back here like a sort of home base. i don't know if it is addiction or a seense of safety. or both.

~ waves ~

Dear Waves,

You will have full service at your location. That is good. 'Will be fun too.

Good luck with the editing decisions. I pack heavy -- right to the point that the bag/s is as heavy it is going to be before I cannot maneuver. Even so, I leave stuff home I could have used. Most of the stuff is not used at all of course -- except the stuff I wish I had (almost sounds like George Carlin)
The truth is what absolutely has to be packed is the meds. When I packed for my two night in June I had about five nights worth of meds in two different places. Next comes hygiene products that I prefer but are not easily available in an unknown town and with out my usual transportation patterns to get to them, . .

I have feet issues so I work my outfits around shoes. Here is what I might do -- not that these are good ideas necessarily. 1.) I might take the broken pair (I pack non-light remember) and try to drop it off at a shoe place the first day as my first order of business so that the pair could be fixed within a few days and I could wear them later on in the trip. 2.) I might budget for a new pair at the vacation place. I might even get lucky enough that the shoes might be within the price range (or cheaper) of what I get at home.

I have not flown for while. I remember that airplane travel had an effect on hormones. . . it was not a problem, but the flow pattern was different

As my sister would say: "I hope that your trip is without incident."
I send good wishes that all goes well.
M